Friday, October 22, 2004

checking in.

so, i've been busy lately.. with work, and also on a big household project. So that's why i went awol.

and i'm gonna go awol again for a little while. not feeling very inspired lately, and need to recharge.

I'll be back soon though. ;-) if you need to get in touch with me, just leave a comment.

hope you are all well!

Saturday, October 9, 2004



THAT is a great white shark. I took that photo. That is a photo i took of a LIVE GREAT WHITE SHARK.

seriously, if you live in northern california, it's worth the trip. besides the obvious fact that the aquarium is a cool place, but looking the only great white shark on exhibit in the WORLD is pretty fucking awesome.

ok, maybe i shouldn't call it a great white shark, because it really isn't that big (4 ft long), but dude, it looked just like jaws. freaky black eyes, and mean looking.

the funny thing was, there were these big signs in the room that said "NO FLASH PHOTOS" becasue the flashes bother the fish. on top of that, there was a guy in the room answering questions in a mic, and he kept saying, "no flash photos, please." and these dumb motherfuckers who don't know how to work their cameras kept taking FLASH PHOTOS and every time that happened, the whole room would collectively berate them.

so that photo is grainy and blurry becasue i took it in a dark room with NO FLASH. thank goodness for photoshop! (although it is time for a new camera, because when i got right up to the tank, the shark swam right in front of me and when i pushed the shutter, it took a good second and a half before the photo took, and by then all i had was blue. grr.)

Thursday, October 7, 2004

just when you thought it was safe to go back in the water...

i am rocking out to Stevie Ray Vaughn and cleaning my office, although it is not so much cleaning, it's more like moving stuff back and forth from one side of the room to the other. every once in a while somethinmakes it on a shelf or in the trash, but for now it's mostly moving back and forth.

mmm, how did i not discover stevie ray vaughn until recently? mm, thank you, john mayer, o future husband of mine, for loving stevie ray vaughn and mentioning him all the time. i mean, my dad listened to SRV but i never really paid attention. damn, this guy was GREAT.

my goal for this weekend is to go to monterey to see the shark. White sharks have always fascinated me, ever since i read jaws when i was twelve. that book got passed all around the sixth grade. i'll admit that most people were interested in the tiny naked woman on the front (the cover was just a tiny version of the movie poster). i think i was the only one who actually read the bnook all the way through. after that, there was a time i wanted to be an icthyologist. but that was before i realized that i suck a science.

so anyway, totally looking forward to emptying out my memory cards and taking some more great aquarium shots. maybe if i'm lucky i'll be able to add some shark photos.

Thursday, September 30, 2004

come on, RAIN ALREADY!

if i EVER learned my lesson i'd be going to bed right now instead of posting.

wednesday i woke up at 7:54 am, 6 minutes before i was supposed to leave for work. YEAH, that was good. luckily i never actualy leave at 8, so i knew that as long as i was pulling out of my driveway by 8:13 i would be ok. i was only 3 minutes late , which was some sort of miracle. of course, i never quite woke up, and then i got a migraine. it was sooo annoying. it's been a bad month for migraines. oh well, i hadn't really had any for a while, maybe i'm just getting them out of my system.

today i overslept again, but not as late. i still had plenty of time to wash my hair and make a bagel. however, i did leave the cream cheese on the counter, which pisses me off. not olny becasuue it was a wast of a brand new cream cheese, but when i was at TJ's, they were out of light cream cheese, so i 'HAD' to buy the regular kind. i was really enjoying that real cream cheese!!!

it's getting darker earlier, and i'm really not looking forward to driving home from work in the dark next month. grr. and it was all gloomy this week... when it gets all overcast and misty like it was today, i wish it would just rain. i love the way things smell after it rains, i love coming home and putting on fleece and turning my heater on, i love listening to the rain outside my house, but i HATE the weird anticipation when you think it's going to rain but it doesn't.

so come on! RAIN ALREADY! plus i'm a little dissappointed... all these earthquakes and i haven't felt ONE. boo.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

oh, the pain

i woke up this morning at 7:54 am with a migraine. this is the WORST THING EVER. back in the days before Excedrin migraine (a miracle drug) migraine would basically put me out of commission for the rest of the day. suffice to say i missed a lot of school. but now, if i start getting the little floating blind spots that precede the BLINDING PAIN and NAUSEA i can pop some pills and then just feel slightly icky. but if the migraine starts in my sleep, the preventative drugs don't happen and i wake up feeling like i'm going to DIE. the only thing to do then is take pills and sleep it off, but have you tried to go to sleep during the day with crazy light sensitivity and the worst pain in you head you ever felt? it's not easy. note easy at all. somehow i managed to fall asleep, but i don't know how, my cell rand a few times and there were people splashing around in the pool next door, which was annoying. i wanted to open my window and scream at them, but that would have been bad. bright daylight and screaming = not good for migraines.

but now i am feeling marginally better. At least, i feel ok enough to sit at my computer writing and listening to Paula Abdul without feeling like i'm going to vomit (from the migraine, not the paula abdul, silly!)

actually, the paula abdul is pretty cool... it's taking me back to 1991 when we used to stay in at lunchtime and put on paula abdul and janet jackson and the party and make up really bad dance routines. it was like a little sixth grade dance club, with 5 girls dancing to bad pop music with the lights on. it was good times for sure.

i found this cassette (CASSETTE!!!) during the massive housecleaning over labor day. my mom came over and we moved some stuff around in the master bedroom, cleaned up the clothes bomb that exploded in my room, and i got a bunch of stuff in bags to sell at the flea market. i actually THREW OUT CLOTHES. my friends will know what a big deal this is. i still have tons of clothes from HIGH SCHOOL, people. clothes that don't even fit anymore. i still kept a few old things that don't fit (but you can bet if they did, i'd be wearing them) but i got rid of about 6 bags of stuff. today i'm going to make another pass through the closet, and take down some boxes from my closet and hopefully get rid of some of that stuff. I have my little mermaid collection up there. that's going to be hard, trying to decide what is really worth keeping, and what is just just mass produced trash that wouldn't even sell on ebay. should be fun to go through everything, though.

so, i had a totally groupie moment at work yesterday. my favorite photographer came in to my work, and right before he left i did a little gushing about how much i love his photos. he was so nice, and told me that he had just hung a bunch of stuff at a local coffee shop, and that he was going to have a booth at the local art and wine festival next week. it was way cool, and i felt like a dork. then a few minutes later he came back, handed me a calendar, and left!!! i geeked out for the rest of the day. it was the coolest. i hope someday i can take photos that are ever 10% as amazing as his are. beautiful.

well, while i've been sitting here i've gone from feeling queasy to being STARVING. grilled cheese, here i come.

Monday, August 30, 2004

must be a full moon.

there is something about the end of the month... at my work, all the fucking CRAZIES come out of the woodwork.

to set this up, i am a front desk girl. i'm not a receptionist, i hang out the front desk and send everyone who comes in to where they need to be. part of the time, i just point to the part of the office they need to be in, but other times i have to spend a few minutes with someone to give them paperwork, or help them with random stuff. so, i'm a pointer and a random stuff-helper.

so today i'm helping this really nice lady. we're just about done, i'm getting some brochures and papers for her, when this lady walks in the door and immediately starts yelling.


no regard for the other people in the office. no regard for the fact that i was currently helping someone. me and the nice lady give each other a look, and i say, very politely to the woman, "i'll be with you as soon as i'm done helping this lady."


i'm trying to ignore this obnoxious woman, but it's not working very well. i say, "I'll be with you in just a second. Go ahead and have a seat."


i shit you not.

nice lady looks at me and says, "you know, I can wait a second..."

yeah, that's just what this obnoxious bitch wants. she wants everyone in the office to drop EVERYTHING to help her. i told the nice lady not to worry about it, she was here first, obnoxious lady has to wait her turn.

in the meantime, the crazy bitch has wandered into an adjacent part of the office and is screaming at the girl in that area stuff like, "WHAT DOES THIS ONE MEAN?" "HOW MUCH DOES THIS COST?"

has anyone seen that SNL skit where will ferrel is playing a character that can't control the volume of his voice? that's what this lady was like. i'm not even exaggerating.

so, finish up with the nice lady, who gives me a sympathetic look, then i try to determine what the crazy lady really needs. no matter how specific my questions were, she jsut kept repeating the same thing, along with the I'VE BEEN CALLING ALL MORNING comment. i think i've figured out what she needs, and at this point, i'm like, FUCK THIS, and i send her over to one of my co-workers (who we'll call S.) and then i leave for lunch. as i'm leaving, i walk past poor S., who gives me that wide-eyed "oh my god i can't beleive this person they are really scaring me why did you send them to me?!?!" look. you know that look.

an hour later, i return from lunch, and as i walk past S., i whisper jokingly to her, "is she gone?"

S., who looks shell shocked, shakes her head NO.

turns out, while i was gone, this woman proceeded to abuse EVERYONE she came into contact with. she asked S. to make a copy for her. then she goes, ok, well, i need three of this one, two of this one, and four of this one.
S. told her nicely, well i can do this one, but we're not kinko's. she made one person go outside to get her backpack out of her car. she was carrying a lot of cash and thought she lost it no less than THREE TIMES, and had mini almost-crying freak out moments. as S. is telling me all this, i'm really glad that i missed it. and on top of it all, she was still in the office, taking loudly to one of my other co-workers.

now, a lot of people come in asking to see Mr. X, or Mr. Z, or any of the other reps in my office. but a lot of time, they don't need to talk to a rep, they need to talk to S., so when crazy lady came in asking for Mr. X, i attempted to figure out what she needed, and it sounded like a simple thing that S. could take care of.

turns out, i was wrong, and she actually needed to talk to Mr. X. before i sent her back to S., she went to talk to MR. X. she told him that this crazy lady was yelling his name, and did he know who she was or what she needed?

he took one look and said, "hell no, and i'm going to lunch." (to be fair, Mr. X is a really good guy, and he wasn't pawning this crayz off on S. to be mean or anything.)

well, when poor S. gets this woman at her desk, and discovers that she needs to talk to Mr. X, she goes next door to the place he's having lunch and makes him come back to help her. (you go S.!)

so she is in the office making a scene for over an hour. boy, we got some good break room fodder from this one.

and to top it all off: i was really freaking out that a one year old baby had been alone in a car for over an hour on a warm day. so i went to the co-worker who had gone out to her car, and asked if there had been a baby in the car.

she said, "No, just a very bored 18 year old boy."

so this woman was not only obnoxious, but she LIED to us so we would help her before the other people. who were waiting their turn like civilized people.

sometimes i just don't get people at all, you know?

Sunday, August 29, 2004


i'm really excited that Garden State is the number one selling CD on amazon right now. It took me a week to get it (after harassing the employees at wherehouse to order more, FUN TIMES) and it was worth the effort. this CD rocks, you should all buy it, and go see the movie. it doesn't matter which order you do those things in, either, as long as you do both. ;-)

Thursday, August 26, 2004

neslee tollouse

every time i make cookies i think of that friends episode where they're trying to figure out phoebe's grandma's secret cookie recipie and it ends up being the nestle tollhouse cookies.

i'm actually not baking right at this very moment, but i need to hurry up and start soon... one of my co-workers has a birthday tomorrow. plus i've been talking about baking for about three days and if i don't hurry up and bring in some cookies, i think i'll get mobbed by an angry hoarde.

i can't wait for the weekend. i want to stay home and sleep in and stay in my pj's all day. i'll only get dressed to go see garden state again, or to go out and get the mail. i'll take a nap in the middle of that day, on saturday AND sunday. i'll work on the baby blankets for C. i'll listen to a lot of good music. i'll catch up on my olympics and clean out my tivo. and on my way home from work tomorrow i'll go to trader joes and pick up some lemon sorbet and i'll be the happiest girl ever. ;-)

i loves me some lemon sorbet.

Sunday, August 22, 2004

awol no more

so, i've been slacking lately, but i've been busy! but i'm goign to listen to my friend Liz, who said, 'update your blog!!' heehee.

last weekend started with a visit from donna and a whirlwind trip to LA. we left friday at 2:40 pm, drove, partied, slept, ate and drove. we arrived back at donnas house at 6:00 on saturday. total - ~27 hrs. RIDICS. but it was worth it to see the look on jason's face (we drove down to surprise him at his going away party). it was great to see the gang in LA, too. i only wish we had been able to stay one more day, but we were on a tight schedule.

sunday me, donna, cynthia and jason (who followed us up to SJ the night before) got lunch, and then i FINALLY got to see garden state, which was just as good as i had hoped, if not better. it's a GREAT flick. go see it.

last week was boring. i worked and slept mostly. but friday i got a call from debbie, who had a ticket to see the lion king in SF. her boyfriend was sick, could i make it? HELL YEAH. it was fantastic. definelty as good as everyone says. very sensory oveload, though. if it comes to a town near you (heh) you shoudl all go see it.

yesterday me and debie went to the mall, where i finally caved in to my intense, burning desire for cool electronic toys. yup, I BOUGHT AN iPOD. it is the COOLEST. for real. while at the mall, we also had ghiradelli sundays, which just topped off a great day. then dinner, and home to play with the new toy. whee!

today was boring. i stayed in my PJ's all day, which was nice. but now i'm frantically doing a load of laundry so i ahve clean clothes to wear to work tomorrow. ha. so like me. ;-)

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

breaking, broken

today was a huge day at work, we were having these big meetings all day, and how do i kick it off? i go out to leave for work and my car WON'T START. thank goodness my boss was totally cool and understanding, and didn't freak out at all!

this was a nice change from crappy retail job... when my battery went dead one morning my boss FREAKED out and gave me a bunch of crap. i should have expected as much, because crappy retail boss was a loser, but it still made me feel bad.

i'm still a little freaked out about the battery, because it wasn't like any dead battery i'd ever had before! the radio still worked, the lights still worked, the keyless entry still worked! i was freaked out that it was my starter or something. but it was just a dead battery, and i only ended up being 20 minutes late for work, so no big. plus, my boss said not to freak out if it happend again tomorrow, which was nice. another co-worker even gave me her number in case it happened again, so she could pick me up on her way in. how nice! my new job is so nice!

IM is still not working. this is driving me NUTS. internet still works, obviously, but some web pages won't load. it's not a random thing, either... it's the same few sites constantly (and i KNOW they're still online). any thoughts/suggestions? because not having IM is KILLING ME. it's saving me time, but it's KILLING ME. ;-)

Tuesday, August 10, 2004


for some strange reason, some websites that i read won't load. they load on my parent's computer, but not mine. i've tried a couple different browsers, too, with no luck. that, and today IM won't load. what the hell is going on?? this is disturbing. i am LOST without IM.

saw The Whothis weekend. it was good times. Pete Townshend did that arm-swinging thing all night, which was amazing to me! yeah, he's been doign to for a few years (heh) but to always hit the strings, to not bash your hand into the side of your guitar once or twice? amazing if you ask me. Roger Daltrey looks awwwfully good for his age.

fianlly bought a new printer. it's about damn time, i say. it's an HP photosmart 7260. so far, works like a dream. but then again, so did my last printer until it BROKE, with no hope of repair. grr. but the new one is good times. i can finally print 8*10's and 5*7's of my photos! whee!

Thursday, August 5, 2004

stream of conciousness.

i am so totally obsessed with a favor house atlantic by coheed and cambria. i hear it, and realize that the singers voice should annoy the hell out of me, but it doesn't. great song. great song.

i spent a few days in SF earlier this week for training for my new job. it was goooood tiiimes. i wouldn have preferred it if i'd had someone to hang out with, but whatevs. SF is the bomb. my company put me up in a nice hotel, i got to take a nice walk to the class (15 blocks! and i walked!!!!) and they are gonna pay me back for my food. wheeee. after i walked back to my hotel the first day, i bummed around for about an hour, and then pulled out the phone book to look for some edible food for dinner. it was then that i realized that i was close to the cable car line that would take me to the financial district and THE FOUR STORY OLD NAVY. and VIRGIN MEGASTORE. and SEPHORA. by then it was getting dark, and there was no way in hell i was riding the cable car into downtown ALONE and in the DARK. so my bank account was safe, but damn. i wanted to go to old navy!! heh.

found out last weekend that one of my closest friends is a FANTASTIC photographer. he was never big on photography, so this was a bit of a shocker. it inspired me to pull out my camera, which i had been ignoring since i got back from my trip in June. I didn't take many photos while i was in SF, because i was alone and a little paraniod that someone on a bike would ride by and snatch my camera, but i got a few decent photos while walking around. i'm going to upload them tonight to three by fives, along with a bunch of photos from last time i was at disneyland, and maybe even some from when i was in AZ. we'll see. everytime i think i'm going to post photos, i end up slacking. bah.

this weekend is going to be totally nuts. i'm spending the evening with my mom and grama tomorrow, then seeing the who on saturday night, then shopping with my friend H. on sunday, and then going to a play sunday night. dishes? laundry? BAH! heh. i'm just resigning myself to the fact that my house will never be clean.

last but not least, i'd like to announce the opening of WWW.ABREEVS.COM. I'm sure some of you have noticed me talking about abreevs and wondered what it was... well, now you can find out! learn the history, see a list of common words, media sightings, get your most pressing questions answered, and best of all, learn how you can speak abreevs and incorporate it into your life! you can also submit new words, sightings, or jsut leave a comment. Abreevs Dot Com was whipped up in a few days as a birthday gift for Danny, the king of Abreevs. it was fun (and a challenge!), so i hope you enjoy it.

Friday, July 30, 2004

desperation, part II

ok, trying again!

help me get my iPod and i will send you some goodies for your trouble.

i need three. and i just found a way to do this with NO CREDIT CARD REQUIRED.

leave a comment and i will e-mail you the details. ;-D

Monday, July 26, 2004

i love my job

i love my new job. i really really do.

firstly, it is less work for more money. that is always a good thing.
secondly, everyone there is SO nice. not a mean one in the bunch. really.
thirdly, the days FLY by. unlike retail where time inches on S.L..O...W....L.....Y.
fourthly, i found a pair of shoes that are halfway decent (meaning i don't want to cut my feet off by the end of the day).
fifthly, did i mention that it pays more than all my previous jobs?
sixthly, i dont' even think these are real words.

ugh, it's time for bed. i'm still not used to this going to bed early thing. whatevs, it must be done! eventually i want to be up early enough to make my lunch in the morning. right now i barely have time for breakfast. hee.

Thursday, July 22, 2004


i want an ipod SO BAD i can taste it.


so this is where i beg with no shame.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me get my ipod.... go here and sign up. use a yahoo e-mail or something, and sign up for AOL or Ebay or anything you want, then cancel it. but remember! you have to complete one of the offers or it won't work!

i only need 4 people to do this. only 4!

it's not a scam. it worked for this guy. and if you want more info you can go here (he has a way to sign up for ebay with no creditcard needed, too! cool!).

once you sign up, run with it! send the link to your friends, and get an ipod of your own! plus they just added the brand new 20 gig ipod!

if you help me get my ipod, i'll help you get one too... i'll post your link on my IM and on my site!


< /grovel >

Monday, July 19, 2004

good day, bad shoes.

my new pants are too long (aah the perils of being 5'2) so i wore my boots with the small heels.


oh, the pain. the horrible excruciating pain! note to self: get new shoes. either that or hem pants.

job is great, people are nice, drug tests are demeaning, brown hair is better (on me, at least), and getting up at 6:30 is not as hard as i thought it would be!

no problems going to sleep tonight, though. i'm so beat! zzzzzzzz....

Sunday, July 18, 2004

endings and beginnings

well, today was the last day of the crappy retail job, and tomorrow starts the new, full time, better paying job!

i am very excited.

i think i will have the hardest time adjusting to the hours. like, i was going to go to bed half an hour ago. gaaah! what can i do? i'm used to going to bed at 1am. this is SO early. i think i'll have to just be a little sleepy for a few days.

I went clothes shopping on friday. i bought TONS of new cute stuff. i get to wear an all-new outfit tomorrow! like, new EVERYTHING. black pants, flowered tank, purple button down shirt. and new shoes too. it's cuteness.

cyndi lauper was AWESOME. no other words for that.

oh, and i'm a brunette again. the brown roots with the red-blonde hair was getting to me. i just can't pull off the whole roots thing. i did it one shade too dark (i was trying to match my natural color) but it still looks good. i think i've come to terms with the fact that i'm not a redhead. *sob*.

GOD, i don't feel like going to sleep yet, but i don't want to be a zombie tomorrow. i think i'll just lie in bed with the lights off an listen to loveline. hee hee!

and i'll give you (all 5 or 6 of you, heh) the deets on the job tomorrow. ;-)

Thursday, July 15, 2004

one more life mission, fulfilled

my two favorite singers when i was a kid were madonna and cyndi lauper. this is in, like '86 when they were both huuuuuge. i loved them both and i always said that i wanted to see them in concert.

in 2001, debbie and i got to see madonna in concert in oakland. it was totally last minute, but our seats ended up beig *great*. it was a fantastic show.

and tonight, i'm going to see cyndi lauper in saratoga with my mom and my sister!! i am so excited... i can check something off my 'before i die' list!

the really cool thing is that the place we're going tonight is one of the best places to see a concert... small, outdoors, great acoustics... and since i've always thought that cyndi was a far better singer than madonna, it's perfect. i don't even care if she does 'girls just wanna have fun' ... i really want to hear 'time after time', or 'all through the night', or 'when you were mine' - 3 of my fave cyndi songs ever. ;-)

Monday, July 12, 2004

it's not right

WHETHER OR NOT you beleive that gay marirage is 'right' or 'ok', you should really go here to sign petition to STOP the amendment that bans gay marriage.

because REGARDLESS of what you beleive is 'right' or 'wrong', we cannot allow our government to pass a constiutional amendment that would TAKE AWAY someone's rights. this is NO WORSE than not allowing women or black people to vote. THIS IS BAD, BAD NEWS, PEOPLE!

"Everyone has the same rights. There is no place in America for a Constitutional amendment denying marriage equality to anyone."

SIGN THE PETITION. your elected officials DO see/read these things. it DOES make a difference.

Friday, July 9, 2004



i am SO EXCITED i can barely contain myself. I start on the 19th... i think i need to go buy some new clothes ;-) but it's full time, monday through friday, WEEKENDS OFF, benefits, 401k, all those good happy things!

but thanks so much for all the happy thoughts sent my way. i know they helped! ;-)


haha, my blog has been hijacked!! ok, my and katlynn are gonna go watch a movie and i'm gonna geek out about my NEW JOB WHEEEEE!

Wednesday, July 7, 2004

i'm a hippie... big shocker there

i've seen this quiz everywhere today. i usually don't see memes until they're played out, so i'm gonna jump on this one.

Wackiness: 30/100

Rationality: 36/100

Constructiveness: 68/100

Leadership: 44/100

You are an SECF--Sober Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a hippie. You are passionate about your causes and steadfast in your commitments. Once you've made up your mind, no one can convince you otherwise. Your politics are left-leaning, and your lifestyle choices decidedly temperate and chaste.

You do tremendous work when focused, but usually you operate somewhat distracted. You blow hot and cold, and while you normally endeavor on the side of goodness and truth, you have a massive mean streak which is not to be taken lightly. You don't get mad, you get even.

Please don't get even with this web site.

this is eerily accurate. creepy, actually.

i also took the 'better person quiz... here's what i got.

Your score as a human being is 90.25.

You are a pleasure to be with and a pleasure to be. Your friends do not envy so much as admire you, and you lead your life with grace, honor, and dignity. This site is humbled to have you take a test on it.

Which brings one to wonder, what are you doing goofing off on the Internet?

and i didn't even lie on the quiz! honest! :-)

want want

totally filched from meegan.

material things i want
becasue world peace is a given, silly!

- a maid. for real.
- a new computer, with a dvd burner and flat panel monitor.
- a new wardrobe
- every single eyeshadow from bare escentuals
- a new digital camera
- a full time job with benefits and vacation time
- a 40 gig ipod
- a blue mini ipod (two is better than one, yo.)
- a trip to see Phish's last shows in VT
- diana krall tickets
- a printer that works and won't break after 1 year
- X-files on dvd, seasons 7-9
- the OC on dvd (not out yet, grr)
- a TiVo for my bedroom
- Netflix
- enough $$ so i could buy every book and CD i want
- that spanish-style house i'm obsessed with

Tuesday, July 6, 2004

long time listener, first time caller!

DUDE, tonight i was on loveline.


i've been listeneing to loveline for years, so i was so totally excited to get through. i called with a germany or florida story, and was on the air within 10 minutes of getting through. if you listen to loveline on the east coast, or somewhere where they delay it for a day, you can listen tomorrow around 10:30, and you'll hear me!

germany or florida is a game they play on loveline based on the theory that all truly freaky news stories happen in either germany or florida. here's my story. do you have a guess?


A get-rich-quick scheme backfired on a couple when a man put his girlfriend's daughter up for auction on eBay. He posted a picture of a girl along a description saying "you can play with her," a line adding a level of creepiness excessive even for a child-selling situation. A concerned eBay user saw the auction, presumably while in the market for "little girls", and contacted local police. The auction was shut down after a few hours as the policies of eBay forbid the selling of children or children parts.

Thursday, July 1, 2004

happy thoughts

I have a job interveiw tomorrow.

it's for a real job, with benefits and normal hours and everything! so needless to say, i want it baad.

so any good thoughts/prayers/positive karma sent my way tomorrow at 10:30 am (1:30 pm eastern) would be much appreciated. :-)

Monday, June 28, 2004

I *Heart* Zach Braff

have you seen the trailer for Garden State?

i keep watching it over and over again. it's quite possibly one of the best teasers i've ever seen. the choice of music, the fact that there's no talking.... i don't even know what the hell the movie is about and i am totally dying to see it.

I'm so used to seeing zach braff being all funny, and in the trailers he has these fantasic empty stares.... it's amazing. i can't WAIT for this movie.

plus i'm now totally obsessed with that song.

Frou Frou - Let Go

Drink up baby doll
Are you in or are you out
Leave your things behind
'Cos it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy
Writing your your tragedy
These mishaps you bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like
So let go jump in
Oh well what you waiting for
It's alright
'Cos there's beauty in the breakdown
So let go just get in
Oh it's so amazing here
It's alright
'Cos there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives
And it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later now
You can't await your own arrival
You've twenty seconds to comply

Friday, June 25, 2004

Hello bed! I missed you!

After 9 days of sleeping primarily on floors (with the occasional bed thrown in, thank goodness) i'm back home. My bed is pretty appealing as it is, but last night around 1 am when i got home, i wanted to hug it and kiss it like it was a person.

This year's youth group trip took us south to LA, east to Tuscon and Scottsdale, then back west to The OC (w00t w00t) and Disneyland, and home again. it was FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC, which i wasn't able to say during the trip being that it was with youth group and i wasn't allowed to swear. not like that stopped me most of the time (hahaha, evil me :-> ), but i don't think it would have been smart to get up during the show last night and tell all the parents and members of the congreagation that it was a FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC week. anyway, the kids knew it was FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC, and that's all that mattered.

There were about 50 poeple on the bus this year, so it was crowded! but for the most part, everyone got along and ahd fun. that was until the back of the bus started doing those stupid 'sha-booya roll calls' but that's another story entirely.

arizona is hot and dusty and EW. it was beautiful, but i wish it hadn't been so fucking HOT. i got some neat pictures of cactus. that was about it. oh, and did i mention that it was FUCKING HOT?

Our day at Disneyland was ridonkulous. one of my friends from back when i was in youth group ditched work and came with us. we spent the whole day together, which was awesome since i haven't seen her since her wedding almost 2 years ago! 25 of us went to the blue bayou for lunch (that's the joint inside pirates of the carribean) and ate insane amounts of food. we managed to spend about 8 hours with a big group, which was fun and totally amazing at the same time - I was at disneyland in February with 8 people and we bitched and argued almost the whole time (that's not to say that it wasn't fun, because it was WAY fun, we just couldn't agree on what to do).

at dinnertime, 8 of us split off from the group, and had this ridics dinner on mainstreet, where we watched the parade, spilled water everywhere, got attacked by a giant butterfly, cleaned up an exploding pack of gum, and laughed until we cried.

we went on all the important rides... Indiana Jones, the jungle cruise, Pirates, Haunted Mansion, big thunder, the matterhorn, the teacups (wheeee) and Small World. Our last FastPass of the day was for Indy, and we had plenty of time to go on the ride and make it back to the meeting point on time, but then the ride broke. we were stuck in our little car for close to 30 minutes, and they turned on the LIGHTS and got a little ladder and we all climbed off the ride and walked out. it was really pretty amazing. we have a photo of us sitting in our car, in the middle of the dart room, NOT MOVING. it rocked.

it was such a great day... out of ten, it ranked an 11, then a 15, then a 19.5, then a 25. basically it was like two and a half perfect days in one. ;-)

I taught the kids about abreevs, too, which they thought was hysterical. but it caught on, and by the end of the trip, people were talking about going to starbs for a cofs, and saying that their lunch was dece, and talking about how the day at disneyland was totes ridics. ok, maybe it didn't catch up that fast, but i was super excited when someone said their lunch was dece, which is an abreev that i'd never even thought of. whee!

This trip was a great one, and i'm really happy with how the show turned out, too. but seriously, i missed my bed. a LOT. so now i'm going to go crawl in it and sleep FOREVER.

Friday, June 11, 2004

this is ridonkulous.


Picture this: The plane circles the airfield, the passengers around you prepare for landing. Suddenly, a familiar catchy theme song begins playing in the background, and the flight crew expresses its delight to be the first to bid you "welcome to the O.C., bitch!"

they actually want to rename john wayne airport...

can you imagine flying into 'The O.C. Airport, John Wayne Field' ??

i mean, i'm obsessed with the OC too, but this is ridonkulous.

instant karma

it's amazing how when things are going not so good, things can make a turn for the better just like that!

i was worrying about some serious money issues - like possibly not having enough money to pay my rent next month! but all of a sudden, i get a tivo rebate of $50 that i had long given up as lost in the mail! then yesterday i got a check from the state - apparently i did my taxes wrong and i got an extra 65 bucks! it helps that i had forgotten about the state refund altogether, so i'm now up $170, which helps a lot.

things are still tight around here, though, so i'm still selling those dvd's (scroll down, hint hint) and i'm taking back some recent purchases, including my new skirt (sob)! i hate to do that, but it comes down to the fact that i just can't afford it! i figured out that by taking some stuff back i can get close to $100 back in my bank account, more if i hadn't been stupid and lost receipts. D'oh! ;-)

but this again justifies my beleif in karma - i try every day to be a good person, and every time i think things are at their worst, i get these little reminders that all my efforts to be nice aren't all for nothing. ;-)

Tuesday, June 8, 2004


ok, so here's the deal.... I'm broke. right now i have $34 to my name, and i need to pay bills. SO! i'm selling some stuff. right now i have a few DVD's in the pile, and i thought i'd put them up here before i put them on craigslist.

$15 per movie, and that includes shipping. they all work. leave a comment with your e-mail if you're interested.

Charlie's Angels
The Talented Mr. Ripley
Gone in 60 Seconds
Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me
The Jackal (still shrink-wrapped!)

Saturday, June 5, 2004

because i have nothing better to say right now.

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Thursday, June 3, 2004

thoughts on recent things i've seen/heard/read

LIT: oryx and crake.
love love love love margaret atwood. one of my top three favorite authors of all time. this book is GREAT. and it just came out in paperback, so you can get it cheap at costco and read it. (and if you haven't read a handmaids tale and alias grace yet, you are really missing out. great books.)

FILM: spellbound
my sister had to talk me into watching this the other day, because a documentary about a spelling bee sounded laaa-aaame. but it was actually FANTASTIC, like, REALLY FUCKING GOOD. you should go rent it now and watch it. go do it. now. go!
good timing, too, this year's spelling bee was this week - i watched the last 3 spellers duke it out on ESPN today. thrilling stuff - no sarcasm intended!

TV: a&e
city confidential, cold case files and american justice are my current faves... i just love crime documentaries, for some weird reason. airline is great too, and is esp. funny to me since i always fly southwest!
honarable mention goes to courtTV - i'm not really interested in trial coverage, but i love their shows... forensic files and the system are my favorites.

SONG: penny & me - hanson
back in the day, my mom bought me that first hanson cd as a joke. you know, the one with mmmbop on it. people made fun of me all the time for having it, and i probably could have sold it or threw it out or something, but aside from the annoying-but-really-catchy-song-that-everyone-ended-up-hating, the rest of it was pretty good. come on, those kids wrote all those songs! so anyway, saw the new video on mtv and the song is great. good harmony, fun lyrics, good song.

ART: hugh macleod
i love these little drawings. LOVE THEM. and as soon as this gem is available as a blog card i'm totally going to buy some.

ALBUM: Her Majesty the Decemberists
my sister hates all the indie music i listen to, she thinks it's all whiny. Colin Meloy is a little whiny, i'll admit, but his voice has something really unique in it, and no, i don't think it's his accent. i love this album, especially track 8, red right ankle(i broke my right ankle almost 10 years ago and it's got red scars on it from the surgery). anyway, there is something about this album that gets to me, but i can't pinpoint it.

Wednesday, June 2, 2004

I feel a bad moon rising

things were really really weird tonight... i got to youth group and things just went horribly, there was mass communication breakdown, i was annoyed, my friends were annoyed, someone has stopped talking to me for no apparent reason, and someone got right up in my face, all jerry springer style.

then i realized that it was a full moon and it all made more sense.

i just think it's lame that a good day can just go to shit like that for a few little things. i mean, today i went to the museum with my sister to see a really cool exhibit with a full size kitchen made of beads (click the images on the side....amazing!).
then i went to lunch with debbie, and went swimming (mmm, swimming), and finally, i stopped at old navy and got a new skirt.

so, a good day overall, i just wish that stupid things wouldn't pop up and ruin my day.

i've been a bit pessimistic lately, haven't i? it's not like me. i think i'm just having one of those weeks. but i just got my new dsl modem, and it's supposed to fix my speed issues, and fast download speeds make me happy, so hopefully by tomorrow i'll be a happy happy girl. ;-)

Wednesday, May 26, 2004


happy: sharon's lemon sorbet
    lemon sorbet rules my world.

happier: watching fantasia win american idol
    fantasia and diana were my picks from the start, so having them be the finnal two was exciting. but YAY, i love fantasia, i can't wait to buy every cd she ever releases.

happiest: having NO MORE CREDIT CARD DEBT!
    not haivng to pay finance charges ROCKS MY FRICKIN' WORLD.

sad: my poor broken printer
    i could get my printer fixed, but i lack the tool to open it up and remove the broken piece. grr.

sadder: having to work during my youth group retreat.
    i should know better than to turn in a request for time off 1 week before i need the days off. duh, me.

saddest: the end of phish.
    phish was a big part of my college life, and even though i felt that in a way i had moved on from my crazy fandom, they are still my favorite band and i am really really sad that i'll never get to see them live again.

Friday, May 21, 2004

maybe i'm amazed

three straight days in my house and i'm going a little stir crazy.

ok, maybe not three straight days, i did leave the house on wednesday to run errands, and i ran out tonight to get some dinner. but my basic reason for staying home is to keep from spending money, and i think i did pretty well at that. i feel like i have to make up for wednesday... i went to costco and got the new Alanis and Diana Krall CD's. both are really good. my boss teased me, he said no one lieks alanis anymore, but whatever! i like her, and that's what really matters.

I was going to go out and see shrek 2 today, but i got hung up on a little project and couldn't bring myself to leave the house until i finished it. i've been mildly obsessed with Jem's cover of Maybe I'm Amazed (the Paul McCartney song). She did it just for the OC, and it wasn't 'released', per se, but i got a copy that someone ripped off the TV, with all the talking in it. whatever, there's not much talking, it'll do.

She sings it in the perfect key for me, and i just decided that i'd figure out how to play it on the piano. so i figured out (with the help of my guitar and my capo) how many steps up it was from the original version, and then banged it out on the piano. i got the chorus in about 20 minutes, no sweat. I couldn't figure out the verse to save my life, mostly becasue the chords have to be inverted to sound right, not to mention to make it easier to play. i ended up putting little stickers on the keys so i could remember what chord goes next. so now i can play the verse (with few mistakes), and the chorus is easy easy. maybe by the time the common ground talent show comes around, i'll be able to play it with no stickers and sing at the same time. that would knock everyone's socks off. ;-)

see, i didn't completely waste my day!!

Sunday, May 16, 2004

sometimes i have these, weird,

sometimes i have these, weird, unexplainable pangs of lonliness.

it's bizarre, because these little bouts of depression always happen at the strangest times. i mean, today i made plans with a friend at work (we're going to dinner and a movie, yay for girl's night out), i spoke to my mom and my grama on the phone, i had messages from two of my best friends waiting for me on my machine when i got home from work, and i talked to two more of my closest friends on IM.

but then i'm sitting at my computer and i want to cry because i feel like i am utterly alone and that no one cares about me, two things that i know are not true at all.

i'm lucky because these little moments never last much longer than a minute or two, and i never really get to the point of crying (which is good, because when i do cry, for whatever reason, i always feel worse rather than better).

i'm really just curious as to what brings this on. at first i thought it was music, but maybe not, tonight i was listening to an old save ferris cd, which is definetly not depressing music...but other than that i have no idea. maybe i'll never know, but for now i'll just consider myself lucky that i can still be objective about this depression thing.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

I'm freeeeee

i just paid off both my credit cards.


i don't have much money in my checking account now, but i'd rather have less money and no debt than lots of money and lots of debt.

so now my balances are at zero on the plastic, and i paid my mom back the 400 bucks that i owe her, and i have just barely enough to cover my bills and i'm totally happy.

plus, my best freind D is in town and we got to hang out yesterday, so we did a bit of shopping. the last few times i've gone clothes shopping i've had really bad luck, so i was expecting no less yesterday. but lo and behold! I got a tank top, a navy velour hoodie and a pair of flip flops at old navy, a pink halter tank top at the gap, and a really cute black knit top at bananna republic for $20!! i felt bad every time i wrote a check, but i haven't bought any new clothes for months.

so basically i'm trading clothes for a new printer. i bought an HP deskjet 3820 almost 2 years ago, and i broke a few days ago. i could get a new one, or i could dissasemble it, mail the broken part to england to get fixed, and live without a computer for a few weeks. since the difference in cost is about 80 bucks, i'll go with the latter.

on the Idol front, I'm gald LaToyas is gone. she is a fantastic singer, i'll give her that. she's really really good. but to be honest, i usually zipped right by her when i watched idol becasue she was BORING. it was like she was a robot in a girl's body... she sang very well, but there was no emotion, no personal investment in the songs, and that's what makes a great singer. you have to hear the emotion dripping off every note, and she was... well, not doing that.

< disclaimer > for the love of god, people, don't leave me a gazillion, poorly spelled comments about how i'm the world's worst person becasue i don't like LaToya. i don't like her! and you're not going to change my mind! so there! < /disclaimer >

Thursday, May 6, 2004

writers block

every once in a while i get big attacks of writers block.

it happened mostly in school, like the few times i just couldn't finish papers in college. i'd sit in front of my computer and... nothing.

i've been trying to finish some dramas for youth group the past few weeks, and again.... nothing. i can't come up with a decent ending.

every time i've sat down at my computer in the past month, to write e-mail or post here, and.... nothing.

it's like i can't bring myself to write anything down.

sometimes i think it's because i have nothing interesting to say. that's true in a lot of ways... i either go to work or stay home (because if i go out, i spend money, and i don't have any money). i like my new job, for the most part, so there's no real complaining about that. i no longer have the day-to-day drama of college to write about... so i feel like... when you sit down to write something, you want to be able to say more than. 'well, today i went to work, then came home and watched law and order.... again'. or 'i didn't work today, so i spent the whole day in my pajamas... again'.

i remember back in high school, i'd write e-mails to my best friend/pen pal three or four times a day. considering we went to the same school, this is pretty ridiculous. lately i've been wondering what the hell i had to say, since i saw him every day, and i dug in my hard drive until i found the files with the letters. as i read through them (and we wrote a LOT, so it took me a while), i realized soemthing important.

i used to write about my thoughts. i mean, i'd write about events, but what i thought about those events was usually the focus of the letters. i used to write about my thoughts, and somehow, that got lost and i thought that the events of my life were what mattered the most.

so on that note: after re-reading old letters to my friend from high school, i realized that i haven't talked to him in a long time. and i miss him. so right now, i'm going to go pour out all my thoughts into an e-mail and send them his way, so he can flash back to 1997.

p.s. how am i going to live 6 months without new episodes of The OC? and how am i going to live with no more new episodes of Friends?!?

Saturday, March 20, 2004


for the first time in over a month, i'm working the whole weekend. like, 8 hours today, 8 hours tomorrow. and 5 hours yesterday.

not like it'm complaining, because i'm not - i need the money. but my boss has had me scheduled so sporadically tht i haven't worked 3 days in a row since christmas time, and i'm not used to it.

plus, working on the weekends just sucks in general. especially since the weather is so fabulous, and i have tons of writing to do for youth group, which i haven't started. instead of working, i'd much rather be home, with the windows open, working on writing the dramas with a good cd and a smoothie.

but instead, i'll get dressed and head out into retail-land to ask people if they found everything ok, and if that will be credit or debit. ;-)

Thursday, March 11, 2004

a parade of dead pets

... that's what one of my co workers called my life when i told her that my frogs (Jack and Karen) died last night.

but when i went to give them a little froggy funeral tonight, i realized that Karen was still very alive! so thank goodness for small blessings - at least *all* my pets aren't dead. My little froggies were/are getting up there in years... i've had them for at least 2.5, maybe 3 years? how long do frogs live, anyway?
well, Karen was always the bigger, stronger one, (that's how i could tell them apart) so we'll see how much longer she hangs around. she fought with me when i tried to take Jack out to bury him, she was jumping at the spoon and trying to bite it and just getting in the way. I think she didn't want me to take him. ;-(

so now little Jack is resting under a bush just outside my front door, where i can think of him every time i go outside. i'm going to go get a little ceramic froggie or something to put out there too, as a little memorial.


Monday, March 8, 2004

no more dust bunnies!

yesterday i got all productive and cleaned my office. and when i say i cleaned, i mean it.. i was shredding like crazy, and i threw out a ton of papers that were super old. like, old receipts that i shouldn't have saved in the first place, since i paid for said items in cash, ATM receipts from when i was with wells fargo - over 2 years ago! along with a few assignments from when i was in college, which now that i think about it, was also more than 2 years ago... wow, has it been that long?!?

but it was actually a nice way to spend my afternoon, it was a beautiful day, and i opened my window and listened to the new norah jones cd, which is very very good. and now there are no more dust bunnies to make me sneeze. i still have some finishing touches, but for the most part, everything is off the floor! hooray!!

i even moved some furniture to make room for a new desk/storage thingie that i'm getting from my mom (hopefully). i'm glad i did it last night, too, because i realized that my plan would not work at all, so i moved the couch back to where it was and started coming up with other ideas. i wouldn't have any problems if the window in here wasn't GIGANTIC and right in the middle of the wall.

on the social front, today looks like it will be a good day... i'm meeting a friend at the mall today to window shop, then i have youth group (where hilarity will ensue, as usual) and them a friend from work is going to come over to watch a movie. so I'll be busy but at least i won't be locked in my house the way i've been for the past few days..... ;-)

Wednesday, March 3, 2004

please do not let me go

every once in a while i'll get a new cd and get stuck on the first or second song. when i say stuck, i mean stuck - like i won't listen to anything else for days.

lately i've been 'stuck' on please do not let me go, from the love is hell pt. 2 EP by ryan adams. there's just something about it that i can't explain.

please do not let me go
If the walls in the room could talk
I wonder to myself would they lie
It's like some kind of jail
Fall from the curtains onto the bed
I'm all alone now, I can do as I please
I don't feel like doing much of anything
True love ain't that hard to find
Not that you will ever know
Would you lay here for awhile?
Please, do not let me go
Please, do not let me go
You were sweet enough to sing,
Oblivious to melody
Red suitcase full of clothes
Washed up on the shore of memory
I'm all alone now and I feel just find
I don't feel much like doing anything
True love ain't that hard to find
Not that either one of us will ever know
Would you lay here for awhile?
Please, do not let me go
Please, do not let me go

Sunday, February 29, 2004

polyphonic spree

Saturday, February 21, 2004

good times.

there is nothing like a little vacation to get your mind off depressing things!

this time last week i was in west hollywood eating insane amounts of sushi and celebrating donna's birthday. i flew in friday, partied saturday, went to disneyland on sunday, was exhausted on monday, flew home on tuesday, got my phone, stayed at my parent's due to awful weather, and got back to my own bed on wednesday night. it was defiently good times all around.

we got donna a great group gift - a photo album full of photos from the past year or so that we've taken on our digital cameras, with empty spaces so we could add photos as we went along. i brought my great little HP photosmart 245, which was perfect... small enough to fit in my backpack, takes all kinds of memory cards and no computer required! i printed a TON of photos on one cartridge (probably 70+ but i didn't keep track). if you're looking for a photo printer, i'd highly reccomend it... it's only 200 bucks!

i was very excited to go to disneyland with all my buddies, although i'd say that 8 poeple at disneyland is difficult to say the least... mostly becasue no one can make up their minds. plus it was HELLA CROWDED. whatever, it was a holiday weekend and we got in for free!! minor bickering aside, we had a great time and everyone got to do what they wanted (for the most part).

i also got a great print by one of my favorite artists, SHAG. it's a commemorative print for the 40th anniversary of the tiki room. ( i wish i could find a scan of it online... my scanner's not big enough!) there was a shirt and a purse too, but i managed to control myself. this guy is fantastic, go check his stuff out.

so the vacation was great, except now i'm seriously, SERIOUSLY poor. all my christmas money is gone, which really sucks. oh well, at least i have tivo and a bunch of knitting to keep me busy!

Monday, February 9, 2004

ain't no sunshine when she's gone

last night, my mom called me to let me know that our family's cat Skinny died.

one very happy cat basking in the sun

if you want to get technical, Skinny was my sister's cat. she was born in my front yard when i was in kindergarten, and me and my sister each chose a cat from the litter to keep. to be more specific, i chose a cat, but skinny chose my sister. when she was born she was the runt of the litter (hence her name, Skinny), and when we took the kittens in for show and tell, her eyes were still closed. in both our classes, the kittens were in the center of at least twenty 4 and 5 year olds, and both times, even with her eyes still closed, skinny headed straight to my sister. (skinny and her mommy)

she wasn't the runt for long! (big fat skinny) skinny loved people food, mcdonalds french fries in particular. when we went out to pick up dinner, she somehow knew that french fries were on the way home and she'd be waiting at the front door. she knew tricks, too... when we asked her if she wanted a treat, she'd stand up on her hind legs to reach for it! when we asked her for a kiss, she'd look up and actually kiss us, she would go to bed when we told her to, and she came when we called her (most of the time, anyway).

she was such a mellow cat, too... we called her noodle because when you picked her up she'd just be limp like a noodle. i know it was becasue she totally trusted us... and we could lay her down and she'd lie there however we set her down. (the noodle in action) every once in a while we'd get her do do really weird things... for example, look at this picture! no matter how silly we got, skinny never bit us or scratched us or anything. she was a great sport.

and of course she liked to sleep... and sleep... and sleep some more.

and when i got my digital camera last year, she became my favorite model (camera hog, model feline, contemplating the wall, orange and green).
even back in high school she was great at posing for the camera... we even got her photos taken at a pet store once... (what a gorgeous feline!) and the photographer said she was a natural!

basically, skinny has been a part of the family for as long as i can remember (me and skinny circa 1985). the first thing i do when i get to my parent's house is go look for her... when i got there today she wasn't there and it was seriously the saddest i've ever felt in my whole life... it was like there was a big hole in the house that will never be filled. i don't think there will ever be a day i won't think about her. she really was the best cat there ever was.

the last photo i took of skinny
october 17, 2003

Friday, February 6, 2004

cancellation sucks

i watched the last episode of ED tonight. this was a bit depressing because ED is one of my favorite shows ever. The final episode was really well done, i think. I'm just annoyed - with 'reality TV' crap getting all the press and attention and ratings, good shows are getting cancelled and ACTORS are losing their jobs. you know, people who train for years to learn their craft and consistenly have to struggle to find work. so, basically, instead of watching real artists, america likes to watch people make asses of themselves under the guise of 'reality'.


i've been living a very solitary life this week... i've spent the past three days at home watching a lot of Star Trek TNG and history channel. to keep my brain from turning to complete mush, i did a dry run of my taxes (getting back $550, which is less than i anticipated, ugh) and balanced my checkbook (i have about $12 to my name right now! fun!). I also started a cross stitch... the first one i've done in a long, LONG time. It's an angel dressed in purple with big wings. i don't even know how long i've had it sitting in my closet... a long time, i think. i work on it while i watch tv (actually, i listen more than i watch) and i've finished a big chunk of it.

i have to go back to work tomorrow which will be a bit of a shock to my system, but i'm cool with that since i get to pick up my paycheck (which i'm worried will also be less than i am anticipating). at the very least, my rent is paid for the month, i went to the grocery store, and all my vacation money is set aside already.

and in one week, i will be in Hollywood with my best friends in the whole world.

Life is good. ;-)

Friday, January 30, 2004


so, no new phone for me.

apparently, you can only use the promotions that are offered by verizon every two years, but they say you can do it up to two months before your contract is up, because people get antsy and want their new phones.

apparently, i don't hit that mark until TWELVE DAYS FROM NOW. by then the rebate on the phone i want will be gone. i might have to pay full price, or look for another phone that might not have the features i want. in my opinion, this is a GIANT LOAD OF CRAP.

i console myself by thinking about how two weeks from now i will be carousing with my best buddies in LA, eating sushi, sightseeing and getting my picture taken with mickey. ;-)

Thursday, January 29, 2004

i love new toys!

i am so excited... if all goes well, tomorrow i will be the proud owner of a shiny new LG VX6000 camera phone!!

i'm really more excited about the other features on the phone, the camera is just an extra goodie... i am glad to finally have an alarm (my last phone didn't have one... so annoying) and it's got the kind of phone book where you can have one name with a bunch of numbers and e-mails attached. my current phone just lists everything... like, D's house, D's Cell, D's e-mail, D's # in boston, etc. Hate that.

I think this is the same phone that one of my friends has, and hers has this neat thing where you can take a pic of someone and it comes up when that person calls you. that's pretty cool, too! ;-)

i'm so funny, i have this obsession with new, cool tech toys. I need tons more money to keep up this habit... anyone want to give me some ? ;-)

Tuesday, January 27, 2004

mp3 player for sale

I am thinking about selling my 20 gig RCA LYRA mp3 player. it's one year old, in great condition (a few scratches on the outside, but that's it), and has all original accesories in the box. i can be used for mp3's OR files, and supports mp3PRO, a way of encoding files at good quality in half the size. great if you're thinking about digitizing your music collection, since you can get twice as many songs for the same space!

I purchased this 1 year ago for $250. I'm selling it for $150 and i'll even pay shipping! it's got close to 10 gigs of music on it, or i can erase it all, whatever you want. ;-)

I really don't want to use ebay or craigslist, so i'm posting here first. if you are interesed, or know someone who might be, leave a comment!!!

Sunday, January 25, 2004


someone sent me the link to today... basically , you mark whether you oppose or favor certain issues, and it compares your answers to the presidential candidates and ranks the candidates according to your answers!

here's what i got.

1 Kucinich Score: 100%
2 Sharpton Score: 92%
3 Kerry Score: 92%
4 Dean Score: 85%
5 Clark Score: 83%
6 Edwards Score: 78%
7 Lieberman Score: 69%

Friday, January 23, 2004


i am working on a project and i need 5 people to help me out. it requires less than 5 minutes of time, and all you really have to do is fill out a form. you do not have to give me more than your e-mail address, and you actually get something out of the deal - especially if you like to take digital photos!

if you can help me out, leave a comment with your e-mail (1/24: had mine up one day and i'm already getting spam! WTF!) and i will give you more details.

thanks in advance!!

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

sleep is my favorite thing.

i just woke up. it's 10 to 1 in the afternoon. it's officialy the start of a great day!!!

a great day is defined, of course, by whether or not i had to wake up to an alarm clock. i hate alarm clocks, i think they are evil, and i'd like to throw mine out the window. i'm all for sleeping untl i wake up on my own, which is one of the greatest feelings. when i do, i usually sleep 10 hours. ten hours!!! i'm 25 and i still need 10 hours of sleep to feel rested! this annoys me because there is so much to do every day and i almost never get 10 hours of sleep which means i'm tired a lot. but not today!!!!!!

today i am 25 and one week. my birthday was great. first i went to work, which is normally not a good thing to do on your birthday, but i needed hours really bad so it was actually a good thing! then i drove to san jose, where me, my mom and my friend debbie went to e&o for dinner. if you live in the bay area, you really should go there... the food is great and the corn fritters are to die for! then, after a little snarl up with dessert (long story short, no dessert at all) we went over to the center for performing arts where we saw Dreamgirls starring FRENCHIE DAVIS!!!!!

oh. my. god. she was amazing. this is the first time i've really ever heard her sing for longer than a soundbyte and she is even more amazing than i thought she'd be. i read in the paper that she got a record deal, and i can't wait to go buy it! i'll buy two!! she is seriously awesome. ;-)

and back to today... i have a nice list of stuff to do and i'm gonna get started... and i WILL NOT get sucked into my tivo. ;-) HA. fat chance. but at least i can fold towels at the same time!!

Saturday, January 10, 2004

if only...

i got an e-mail yesterday, for a contest to win tickets to see john mayer at a taping of the ryan seacrest show.

in LA.

on my birthday.

they just said to send an e-mail with a few sentences on why you should be chosen... i totally would have gotten those tickets. but i won't be in LA for my birthday. and I thought that i would never be able to get there in time because i had to work the day before. but i don't. so i could have gone. and the contest is CLOSED now.

whatever, not like i have the money to go to LA anyway.

but i would have totally won those tickets, so that makes me feel a little better. ;-)

Wednesday, January 7, 2004

web design is haaard

since my last few web designs have all been modifications of the same, boring template, i had forgotten how hard making a new design from scratch is!!

i'm working on a project for a friend, and while i have the basic designs down, i'm trying to make the layouts skinnable and that is waaay hard. plus every time i try to format my text, the css goes all wonky.


whatever, it's a challenge, and my poor atrophied brain could use a little bit of a challenge! BRING IT ON, CSS! I CAN TAKE YOU!


Monday, January 5, 2004

new year, baby

aaah, 2004. you know you're getting older when you can actually remember how you spent new year's eve ten years ago (at a party at deanna's house, sans boyfriend, who was in tahoe and who called at midnight.) scary.

this year new year's was a four day event of sorts... we rang in 2004 in grand, santa cruz style, dancing at the blue lagoon. it was great - good music, cheap, and not too crowded! everyone got kisses at midnight, and eventually we made it back to my house where a few more folks joined us and everyone just talked and ate and drank until we all dropped ourselves into beds and couches around 4 am.

new year's day we had breakfast (at 2pm) at the santa cruz diner. we all agree that they have the best hashbrowns ever. when we got back to my house we realized how bad it smelled (i think the whiskey jeff brought had something to do with that) so we opened the windows and cleaned everything up. later that night a few of us met at the mercado and saw mona lisa smile. on friday we played cranium, ate obscene amounts of pizza and watched pirates. saturday i did a little shopping, had luch at miyake's with d and d (d squared) and then went to work. (and now it's monday and i feel like i'm still recovering.)

the only problem i have with the new year is that everyone makes such a big deal about it being a new start, when it really isn't. i always hype myself up about all the changes i'm going to make in the new year, and i only dissapoint myself when i can't (or just don't feel like) making those changes. that doesn't mean that i'm not going to make 'resolutions' this year... i am, i'm just going to go about it differently this time. i bought myself a notebook, and each month i'm going to pick one small goal for myself. the point will be to build one good habit each month and then maintain them. if i can make at least two good habits i'll feel like i actually accomplished something. ;-)

Thursday, January 1, 2004

so this is the new year....

so this is the new year,
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one

i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

there'd be no distance that could hold us back.

so this is the new year....

-death cab for cutie