Sunday, March 31, 2002

easter... phew!

bombings, police standoffs, car accidents and war.... happy easter, everyone.

i am not happy about the stuff going on in israel right now. we have family friends who live there, and my best friend was planning on going there for school next year. d, like i said... not allowed! although if things keep going the way they are i doubt they'll even be having classes. plus, on top of the bombings and all that shit, there were, like 2 police standoffs in norcal today, and a fourth-grader at my dad's school died in a car accident. bummer, dude

anyway, easter. my day was remarkably similar to last year... up at 5 am to get ready for sunrise service, breakfast at church, nap, and dinner in santa cruz. i didn't eat any easter candy... the only sweets i had were a few chocolate covered cahsews from marini's. mmm. although i do think i'm going to have to break down and buy a cadbury egg before they dissapear until next year. those things are so damn good... it's a good thing they aren't around all the time!

i saw my friend grant at church today... and i haven't seen him in a long time, so that was nice. since he's been away at college he's been getting into jamband music, which is great because it means i'll have another show buddy this summer!!

tomorrow me and my sister are going to see lord of the rings, becasue she hasn't seen it yet. i'm looking forward to seeing it again... and in the theater, no less! i didn't even know it was still playing. i guess if i'm going to be sitting through a three hour movie, i should get some sleep. ;-)

Friday, March 29, 2002

friday five

friday five!

1. If you could eat dinner with and "get to know" one famous person (living or dead), who would you choose? this is so funny, since he isn't really 'famous' yet, but i'd have to choose john mayer. from what i can tell, we have a few things in common (we both love jeff buckley, for one), and i'd really love to pick his brain about stuff other than music. plus, he's hot. ;-)

2. Has the death of a famous person ever had an effect on you? you know, i'm never really that emotionally impacted when celebrities die... i remember being surprised when princess diana died, though.

3. If you could BE a famous person for 24 hours, who would you choose? i'd be myself...

4. Do people ever tell you that you look like someone famous? not really.

5. Have you ever met anyone famous? i've met three of the members of phish (trey, mike and jon), neil patrick harris and christian mena (after a performance of rent ), and camryn manheim (there's an undeveloped picture of us together somewhere in my room). and i'm sure i know a few people who will be famous one day... i have lots of very talented friends. ;-)

Wednesday, March 27, 2002

I was going through my

I was going through my archives and found an old post on colorgenics. in the name of science (well, not really, but you know what i mean) i decided to try it again. this time, instead of lingering on my choices, i just clicked as fast as a could, on a whim. i didn't get the same results as last time, but these are also very accurate. amazing!!

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.

Circumstances are holding you back, forcing you to back off and to forgo all the pleasures, fun and games for the time being. But this is only a temporary situation and before you even know it the situation could change.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore 'why bother?' You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.

Tuesday, March 26, 2002

i *heart* the osbournes

i swear to god, the osbournes is my new favorite show!! i nearly choked on my popcorn, i was laughing so hard. maybe it's the prolific use of the word wanker, which is possibly one of the funniest words ever, especially when said in an english accent.

on another note, i am broke. i'm still looking for a "real" job, but i'm not having much luck. i still have my campus job, and i've got a lot of hours right now, but i only get paid monthly, which makes things really difficult. for example - once all my checks clear, i will have 3 dollars. which means, until i get paid in 2 weeks, i can't spend any money. none . i did, however, find out that there is a used clothing store downtown that buys stuff and pays you on the spot... so i'm going to dig through my closet and my shoe boxes and drag some stuff down there. if i'm lucky i'll make enough for some groceries. ;-)

Friday, March 22, 2002


so, the other day i got my hands on about 5 tracks from the new trey anastasio cd that comes out next month.

yeah, yeah, i know... i shouldn't download unreleased albums off the net, blah blah blah... i say screw it. i want to hear the new stuff and i fully intend to buy the album when it comes out, so whatever.

so anyway... after hearing these songs, i'm really looking forward to this cd! these are great, concise, well done studio tracks with a lot of energy and focus. i think, if you enjoyed seeing (or hearing) any of the summer 2001 trey shows, you'll probably like the album (of course, i can only speak for 5 tracks, but you know what i mean).

although, hearing new trey material only makes me think of phish and how much i miss them.

friday five

friday five!

1. What is your favorite time of year? summer!

2. What is it about your favorite season that, well, makes it your favorite season? i love how it stays light way later, and everyone is in a better mood because they're getting some sun... and of course the outdoor concerts, shakespeare in the park, etc etc etc.

3. What is your least favorite time of year? Why? i don't like winter at all. dark, cold, wet, and windy... all things i don't like. the only redeeming thing about winter is christmas... i love setting up me little fake tree, decorating my living room, amd throwing my annual holiday party.

4. Do you do anything to celebrate or recognize the changing of seasons? not really...

5. What's your favorite thing to do outside? i like just hanging out or reading outside (if the sun reflecting off the pages doesn't blind me). i'm not really sporty, so the only athletic thing i can think of is swimming, and i can't do that very often at all... lack of a swimming pool, if you know what i mean.

Thursday, March 21, 2002


does anyone else have the kylie minogue song running through their brain non-stop lately? i ask because everyone i know who has heard the song also has this problem... and that's ironic, since the title of the song is "can't get you out of my head".

i'm not really complaining, though... the song is pretty good, and the video is super cool.

although i keep thinking about my old 45 of her doing the loco-motion. i wonder if my parents still have that? i could probably get a decent amount for it on e-bay. ;-)


so i'm super annoyed, because the sore throat that i've had for a few days decided to attack my vocal cords last night. this wouldn't be so bad, because it means i can have a day or two where i can not talk to people and have a good excuse for not doing so, but i work in phone sales. you can't do phone sales without a voice. so i'm here in front of my computer, instead of being at work, making the money that i need really badly. i'm hoping that it gets better in the next hour or two, so i can go in for at least a half day. in the meantime, hopefully i can get some work done around here... my room is kinda messy. ;-)

I really want to redesign, but i'm lacking in inspiration. i may just do a really simple, in-between sort of thing just so i don't have to look at the pink anymore. ;-)

Tuesday, March 19, 2002

need sleep!

i swear to god, as soon as i'm done writing this entry, i'm going to go to sleep. i've been staying up until all hours of the night just because i don't feel tired, but then i have to get up and go to work and it suuuucks. so tonight, the goal is 8 hours of sleep. i think it's a good goal.

tonight my housmates and i actually had dinner together. jean was making lasagna, so i made some cornbread and brown sugar peaches for dessert and we pigged out. it was great... we're all really busy, so we don't get to have dinner together often.

let's see. i just signed up to participate in burn, baby burn, a blogger cd swap. what can i say.. i'm obsessed with making mixes. this one is going to be a real challenege... the cd is supposed to have a summer theme. i'm currently trying to think of a creative way to do that... i'm sure i'll come up with something good. i'm great at making mixes, if i do say so myself, so it should be fun.

by process of elimination, i'm pretty damn sure that movable type 2.0 is going to be released tomorrow. hmmm... a prize to anyone who can guess what i'll be doing tomorrow night! ;-)

and a final note to d, and everyone else, actually: please continue to 'waste my comment space with drivel'. i know i'm terrible at following up on comments (and writing e-mails, for that matter), but i read them all... they make me happy. so keep it up, people!

Sunday, March 17, 2002


back to pink.

i was up until 3 am last night watching the x-files (3x19 and 3x20) and i still woke up at 11:30 this morning. amazing. i think 3x20 is one of my favorite episodes (you know, the one where mulder screams like a girl). i actually remember sitting in the family room in my parent's house with my sister, watching that exact episode the first time it aired. weird.

i have to go job hunting tomorrow. i'm not looking forward to that... mostly becasuse i actually have to find a 40 hr a week, real life job, and not a crappy part time retail job like the ones i've been working for ages. i always feel like such a dork when i'm looking for a job... but it's something that i can't put off for much longer. i wish i could just say, 'hi, i'd like a full-time job that pays $15 or more per hour' and then i would just have it, with no dumb interviews or job searching. ha. i wish. ;-)

Saturday, March 16, 2002


watching: snl
reading: blue angel
craving: jamba juice
learning: waste
playing: snowbowling

erin go bragh!

well, i figured i'd do a limited-edition design in honor of st. patricks day... fun!

i love living a block from 7-11... because when you want a cadbury egg and you want it now, it's really great not having to drive 5 minutes to safeway.

i got some very exciting news the other day... my friend danny was just cast in the new jewel video!! i have no details, only that the video is going to be for the song 'break me'... but needless to say, this is very exciting. i can't wait to see how it turns out!

well, tomorrow i have the day off, and i'm going to be hanging out at home all day. whee! i can't wait to sleep in. mmm.

Friday, March 15, 2002

friday five

friday five!

1. What's your favorite animal? i'm a cat person, definetly.

2. What pets have you had in your lifetime? good god, i've had so many pets i'm not sure i can remeber them all. there were always at least two cats in our family, and as many as five (jessica, alfie, dolly, skinny, marmalade, punky, princess, mac, mama kitty, bud, eric), and we had rabbits, frogs, fish, lizards and birds. right now, i have two frogs, jack and karen, and i'd like to get a cat sometime in the near future.

3. Is there any specific pet that you've wanted but never had? no, not really.

4. Are you allergic to any animals? actually, i'm allergic to cats, but i think after having been around them my whole life, i've developed some sort of immunity.

5. Do you have any 'pet' pet peeves (your pets or others')? i hate it when people let their dogs jump on you, or blame their dogs' bad behavior on the actions of other people, rather than admitting that their dog is a brat.

Wednesday, March 13, 2002

last day!

so, today was officially my last day of college.

like, i have my degree now. i'm done.

done with college.

i'd be freaking out if it wasn't so anti-climactic... i did all the ceremonies last june, so today just felt... ordinary. people kept saying, "oh wait, it's your last day, isn't it??".

it's funny, because i'm not moving away from santa cruz, and i'll still be working on campus through spring quarter, so i'll still be around... but it won't be the same. i'm sort of sad.

what i really can't wait for is getting my actual paper diploma in the mail!! it's going to be so exciting...

now i'm just rambling. time to go to sleep. ;-)

geography is not my strong point.

ericalynn, you're right... philadelphia is further than toronto.

as you can see, geography is not my strong point. ;-)

(2:17 pm: and of course, new york city is further than philadelphia. d'oh!)

Sunday, March 10, 2002

i <i>hate </i> when i can't figure people out.

have any of you ever had interactions with people where you couldn't figure out what the hell they were thinking, or where they were coming from? i've bee

ok, i'll try to make it more clear. i'm perceptive, and pretty good at figuring people out. you know, if somone is happy, sad, if they like me or hate me or are indifferent or whatever, and more often or not, i get an instinctual feeling about people that i can't explain in words. but every once in a while i come across someone where i get weird vibes and mixed messages and i can't get a clear picture of who they are, and it drives me batty. when this happens, i want to walk up tothem and corner them somewhere and be like, "what the hell is in you head?? where are you coming from?? why aren't you letting me in??"

this is fairly ironic becasue i have become fairly good at hiding my feelings, especially when they could possibly result me losing people... lost friends and and an endless stream of rejections can do that to a person, i guess. even here, where i should feel free to express myself and talk about things i might not talk about to people face to face, i find that i censor myself. even though i try to be vauge and anonymous, i'm freaked out that someone will 'find out', that my thoughts will somehow be read or seen by the wrong people, that what i write will come back to me and bite me in the ass.


Friday, March 8, 2002

friday five

friday five!

1. What makes you homesick? thinking about sleeping in my own bed or being surrounded by complete strangers.

2. Where is "home" for you? Is it where you are living now, or somewhere else (ie: Mom & Dad's house, particular state/city)? well, i have two homes, as evidenced by my cell phone... santa cruz is my home now, but a little part of my will always consider san jose to be home, since that's where i grew up.

3. What makes it home for you? People? Things? i think a little bit of both. once i got all my stuff settled here in sc, it started to feel like home, and not a moment sooner. on the other hand, when i lived in irvine it never really felt like home, even though i had all my things, because i missed my family.

4. Where is the furthest you've been from home, miles-wise? um, i'm not sure which is farther... toronto philadelphia new york city or the bahamas. but yeah. there.

5. What are your plans for this weekend? hopefully i'll get to sleep a lot, catch up with my backlog of e-mails, and do my chores.

Wednesday, March 6, 2002

jared's got aides

ok, i just about peed my pants at tonight's south park... especially after the little conversation about jared over at laura's. haaaa hahaha.

so i've been really good about practicing my guitar every day. it's hard, because not only are the fingers on my right hand peeling and numb, but i'm an instant gratification kind of person. i want results and i want them now!! well, i know that as much as i'd like to be a guitar virtuoso right now, that isn't going to happen. so i practice every day (or at least every other day) for at least 20 minutes. i'm excited, i can play 2 or 3 songs now, and they all actually resemble the real versions. i'm currently being obsessed with joni mitchell... too bad all her songs are so hard. i did find a great site with a whole bunch of tabs on it, though. so i figure, hey, i can blunder my way through a few songs and be excited that they actually maybe sound a little bit like the real thing. ;-)

Tuesday, March 5, 2002

the osbournes?

anyone else looking forward to the first episode of the osbournes? i remember seeing the kids on an episode of cribs (that show i only watch when i'm sick) and i thought they were hilarious. i was skeptical at first, i mean, who needs another reality show? we'll see... but i think this one will turn out to be a hit.

i'm also awaiting with bated breath the release of movabletype 2.0. i don't sing the priases of mt as often as i should... it's a great little program, and was entirely worth the two weeks i spent frustrated in front of my computer trying to get it all to work.

as for this, apparently it is real... i wonder if the people who are bidding on it realize that? as for me, i'll be happy to see that sign gone... it's an eyesore and i hate having to see it every time i get on the damn freeway.

ugh... i have to do my scene in studio tomorrow. not sure i'm ready, but i guess i don't have a choice. three days of classes left. its' funny, but after years of wanting to be done wth school forever, now that i actually am, i don't want to leave! ah well, i'm staying in town, it's not like i can't go up to p.a. and hang out with everyone once in a while.

Sunday, March 3, 2002


this has got to be a joke. seriously. i mean, the sign is ugly, but the city selling it on ebay? that seems a little too bizarre.

busy weekend... hung out with the kids on our youth group retreat, went to the sf zoo, had a blast at a pisces party, and ate yummy bagels for breakfast today. that really was one of the higlights of my day!

i'm not sure why i haven't felt like writing lately. i guess because nothing's really been happening... it's been the same exact things over and over for the past few weeks. boring. i know. ;-