Saturday, September 29, 2001

one year ago today, i

one year ago today, i was spending the best weekend of my life with the pb's in las vegas seeing phish. lunch at the rainforest cafe, hanging out at the luxor, hearing the first spock's brain in 5 years and being shocked by kid rock on 9/29, singing happy birthday to trey on 9/30 (by far the best show i've ever seen!), feeling very out of place at the hard rock hotel, coralyn's bachelorette party, playing slots until 6am.... definetly the best weekend of my life so far. ;-)

Friday, September 28, 2001

weird day today... i've been

weird day today... i've been in one of those totally strange moods. not tired, not awake, not hungry, not thirsty, not happy, not sad, not anything. it's strange and i do not like it. i'm hoping it wears off by tomorrow, becasue tomorrow i'm going to my very first toga party! it's a theater arts toga party, so it definetly won't be a garden variety frat-style toga party. i'm stoked (as my 9th grade science teacher would say).

i did get one productive thing done today... i decided what to be for halloween. drumroll please.....
snow white!! i can use a dress i already have, so all i really need to buy (besides yellow and blue fabric) is a black wig. should be fun. i'm hoping that someone has a halloween party.

also, alicia keys rocks my world. ok.

Wednesday, September 26, 2001

this is great stuff. i

this is great stuff. i love the onion but this is by far the best thing they've ever done. go read!

mmmm, snood for palm... i

mmmm, snood for palm... i can feel my productivity level decreasing as i type.... ;-)

Monday, September 24, 2001

so, i was at school,

so, i was at school, and i had written this nice long post about all the stuff that happened today, and the stupid computer ate it. i was annoyed. i'm not going to type it again... i'll just summarize and say that i'm going to be done with school a quarter earlier than i thought. this is not good. i wanted to take an acting class next quarter. waah.

there was a huge rain storm with thunder and lightning tonight. apprently it was in san jose too, at the same time. big storm. it's too bad i wasn't at porter, i could have watched the naked people. (a totally santa cruz thing. don't ask.)

i've been listening to my new simon & garfunkel cds' for the last few days, and i just like them so much. i like everything, but i do have my favorites. right now, this one is at the top of my list...
simon & garfunkel - the 59th street bridge song (feelin' groovy)

in other news, my new housemate moved in today!! i'm so happy, it's so nice to have someone here. i liked living alone, but i've had enough of that. ;-) and school is going well, i'm keeping up with my reading and i haven't fallen asleep in any of my classes yet!
yes, i am feelin' groovy. (har har, bad joke.)

Sunday, September 23, 2001

mmmmmmmm, new cd's. i finally

mmmmmmmm, new cd's.

i finally got around to reformatting my computer. it's so nice and clean and empty and now i can fill it back up with stuff, only a little more organized this time. ;-)

ok, time to do my homework.

Thursday, September 20, 2001

well, the blog theft situation

well, the blog theft situation has been taken care of - the guy was nice and took it down right away. phew. i was so not in the mood to deal with that if it started getting weird.

i'm backing up my hard drive to re-format my computer again... i wanted to do it before school started but that just didn't happen. other than that, i'm trying to clean my house before my new roomie moves in on monday. i'm excited.

school is going well so far... i'm taking some great classes, but i'm most excited about advanced playwriting... although right now i can't decide whether to add onto a particularly good scene i wrote last year, or start something new. we'll see. in the meantime, does anyone have any suggestions??



Wednesday, September 19, 2001

oh my god, someone stole

oh my god, someone stole my web page. i'm not talking someone took my code, changed a letter here and there kind of stealing. the guy has my entire webpage on his server. graphics, blog, the mp3's that were linked from my blog, all my archives and nearly every single page. i'm just sickened... i guess it's becasue i don't know why anyone would do that.

normally, i'd have a link, but i won't link to him because:
1.) he doesn't deserve it
2.) it's my counter code anyway
3.) i'm hoping that by tomorrow it won't even be there anymore.

ugh. so lame. i really don't want to deal with this right now.

Tuesday, September 18, 2001

dammit, i just realized that

dammit, i just realized that i have to go to school tomorrow.
and that means i have to get up before 12.
damn damn damn.

wheeee! billy graham agrees with

wheeee! billy graham agrees with me!!

"God cares for us, whatever our religious, ethnic or political background may be."
- rev. billy graham, 9/14/01, washington's national cathedral.

Sunday, September 16, 2001

there's nothing like shoe shopping

there's nothing like shoe shopping to get you in the mood for back to school.
this weekends' purchases:

well, only 3 more days

well, only 3 more days until school starts up again. for the first time in a long time, i'm actually looking forward to it. i have one quarter left to go before i've completed my degree, although i may stay a bit longer to finish up the pre-requiusites for graduate school. i'm going to have to make a lot of appointments the first week, too, to get things straightened out. they don't let you stay in school once you're finished unless you go through the rigamarole to get your stay exended. i have been told, though, that since i have a really good reason, there won't be too much of a problem.

now i'm just hoping i can get out of my tendency to stay up until 4am and sleep until the early afternoon. ;-)

Saturday, September 15, 2001

addie posted a great editorial

addie posted a great editorial by gordon sinclair of canada. rather than repost the remarks, i'm linking to her... please go read it. really great stuff.

Friday, September 14, 2001

"We should invade their countries,

"We should invade their countries, kill their leaders and convert them to Christianity."

um, i don't even know what to say to that one.

this article makes me feel

this article makes me feel physically ill. those guys can kiss my feminist, pro-choice, liberal ass.

and he calls this an apology?

i have so manny issues with this i won't even begin to go into them here. but rest assured, these guys don't know what the fuck they're talking about.

this, however, is one of the best things i've read on the subject today.

Thursday, September 13, 2001

today - silence and sadness.

today - silence and sadness.

i am amazed -amazon's red

i am amazed -amazon's red cross disaster relief fund has collected nearly 3.75 million dollars, and the total is still rising quickly. as soon as my financial aid money comes i'm going to kick some money their way.

i'm pissed that nbc decided to postpone premeires week... simply because i'm in desperate need of some sort of escape from 24 hour news coverage. although it does seem that a little something good will come out of this - hollywood is re-evaluating their use of violence in tv and movies. all i can say is FINALLY! when you've got kids who think a plane crashing into a building full of people is 'cool'(scroll down in the article to see what i'm talking about), then it's about fucking time to re-evaluate.

Tuesday, September 11, 2001

still awake here. listening to

still awake here. listening to loveline tonight was a great relief, at least to hear real people talking about their feelings and not near-delirious tv news anchormen senselessly repeating themselves. i forced myself away from my tv, at least for the time being, and am reading countless weblog entries about today's events. personally, i think it was really nice to have this outlet to vent my feelings - i didn't really want to tie up phone lines any more than i had to, and any conversations i did have felt almost redundant - just repeating things i'd heard on the news, over and over, and over. i know that this is similar, just in written form rather than verbal, but at least i can get it out of my system.

today has been spent mostly

today has been spent mostly in front of the tv, watching the coverage of today's terrorist attacks. at one time i flipped through all the channels i get, and something like 33 of them had news coverage. at points i really just wanted to turn it off, and watch something else... music videos, bad sitcoms or a movie, but every time i tried, i felt guilty, like watching something else, or nothing at all was some sort of transgression. there have been times in my life when big, terrifying events have had an effect on me. the explosion of the challenger. the 1989 earthquake. the oakland fires of 1991. the gulf war. the l.a. riots. but this is worse. much, much worse.

the shot of the plane hitting the second tower is morbidly fascinating to me. in one video, the plane seems to just vanish into the building, not even leaving a hole... that is, until things start exploding milliseconds later. it's amazing what slow motion can do. when i'm at my computer, away from my tv, i try saying to myself, 'there was a major terrorist attack on my country today. four planes were hijacked. two of them hit the world trade center, which then fell over. another crashed into the pentagon, and one crashed in pennsylvania. they have essentially shut down the entire country.' it's still hard to believe that it actually happened, even all these hours later. i have a feeleing that it will still be hard to believe years from now.

as the day went on, i was amazed at the announcements of how the whole country basically shut down. no airports. no opera, no theater, no symphony, no concerts, no hollywood. no sports, with all major league baseball games shut down, for the first time since world war two. even disneyland, a place that is known for being open every day of the year, shut down all their parks and stores here in the us. it's strange to say it, but when i heard that news, it kinda all sunk in. even 'the happiest place on earth' couldn't escape the terror after what happened.

i know things will never be the same after today. i'm glad they won't be, because to continue with life as we know it after an event of this magnitude would be callous and stupid. it's about time we really started to think about shit like this. we need to get rid of the 'it won't happen to me' attitude. hey, people, IT DID HAPPEN TO US. i wish with all my heart that it hadn't, but there isn't much to do about it now. all we can do now is keep the victims in our hearts and thoughts.

i'm angry at the people who did this. how anyone can find joy in death, and in killing, is beyond me. i really hope the kids in palestine who celebrated in the streets today grow up and feel very, very remorseful about that. i hope they break the cycle and teach their children not to hate. i hope our country does not turn around and begin killing innocent citizens somewhere in the world simply because they may be near to whoever did this to us. annihilating the person or persons responsible for this might make us feel better, but if we go and bomb a country to hell, we'll be on the same level as 'them'. we can't blame a community for the acts of individuals! those innocent people are just like us, normal people, living in their houses, trying to live a normal life. that's what everyone in the world is going to have to do tomorrow - try to live a normal life. damn, is that going to be hard.

the mall here is closed,

the mall here is closed, the all the malls in san jose are closed, willie brown is basically shutting san fransisco down (smart man).

fuck, they even closed disneyland. and disneyland NEVER closes.

this is so scary i can't even begin to describe it.

HOLY SHIT. I get a

HOLY SHIT. I get a call from my mom telling me that the world trade center is GONE? someone crahsed planes into it? the pentagon too? WHAT THE FUCK?

this is certainly not a pleasant thing to wake up to. actually, this is the scariest thing that has ever happened in my lifetime. i remember being really scared during the gulf war, but i was 12, and that was very far away. this is so unreal, so scary, it feels like i'm watching a movie. i'm literally shaking.

what kind of crazy fuck does something like this? they're saying something like 20,000 people could have died in the world trade center alone. twenty thousand people!!! how anyone can live with something like this on their concience, i don't know. and whoever orchestrated this has to know that now they're in big big trouble.

and of course, does this mean we're going to go to war? how can we wage a war against a terrorist group? and how scary is it to go to war when we have a moron running our country?

i imagine that this is what pearl harbor must have felt like.

Sunday, September 9, 2001

they re-aired the x-files season

they re-aired the x-files season eight finale tonight. the end of that one makes me giggle every time. i also found an mp3 of scully's theme (if you're an x-files fan, you know what i'm talking about) which i've been looking for since the first time i heard it... i beleive it was in all things... great episode. anyway, you can get it at

Wednesday, September 5, 2001

well, i just returned from

well, i just returned from the madonna concert and it was better than i ever imagined it could be! we had seats up top, behind the stage, and at a slight angle, so we couldn't see the whole thing, but there was a screen right in front of us, at eye level, so anytime we couldn't see, we just looked at the screen. we were actually closer to her then most people in the audience. she did mostly new stuff, but she did do human nature, which is one of my favorite songs! there were tons of different costumes, flying, lots of amazing dancing, but the best part was when someone threw a teddy bear at her and she caught it, looked at it and said, "hey, don't throw your shit at me!"

i was in the same room as madonna. tee-hee!

Tuesday, September 4, 2001

holy shit. holy shit. holy

holy shit. holy shit. holy shit.

i'm going to see madonna.

holy shit.

Monday, September 3, 2001

today's labor day activities revolved

today's labor day activities revolved around sausages and pies. apparently someone had a little too much of both, so there was a tiny barbeque that revolved around those two things. it was great... listeing to edith piaf by candelight on the balcony, breathing the salt air... what a nice way to spend an evening.

Sunday, September 2, 2001

i've been seeing ads for

i've been seeing ads for "o", and i thought it looked sub-par... who needs another bad teen flick? however, it turns out that it's based on othello, and i've heard from several people that it's really good. so i decide to look up the movie. since it's an updated version of othello, they've of course updated the language, and i came across how now, dude?, a cheezy shakespeare to teenspeak translator. most of it was lame, but their translation for what's in a name? that which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet was this:
"puff daddy", "p. diddy", whatever. he still sucks.
so true.

side note - the movie is directed by tim blake nelson, who portrayed delmar (my favorite character) in o brother where are thou. now i really have to see this movie.

wow. the last few days

wow. the last few days have been insane. today i went to see the final show of "the scottish play" at shakespeare santa cruz (beautiful set and sound design!!) and then spent the rest of the day hanging out with jean and david. it was a nice change, since i've been spending most of my days just bumming around the house.

mmmm, my mom bought me 2 giant pixy stix, in my favorite colors, red and purple. i love the sugary goodness!