Monday, December 29, 2003


where does the time go??

all of a sudden christmas has come and gone, and now it's creeping up on new years and yet again we (me & the high school buddies) have no concrete plans for new years eve. some things never change. ;-)

i've been having fun playing with the best present ever, and i'm still cleaning up after the party i threw saturday - my annual holiday party. the last one was a bit of a dud (everyone was sick), and last year we couldn't nail down a date that everyone could do, so no party. this year, however, was fab, we ate tons of food, traded gifts, played games, sang songs, and ground some chocolate into my couch. ;-) but all ended well and we had a great time. who knows, we might even break a record for my little house and have two parties here in one week. we'll see what happens on the 31st!

good news on teh job front, too - my boss told me today that i'm one of the seasonals they want to keep on after the first of the year. this is great news becasue i am quickly running out of money! i'll only be part time, but i'm gonna file for unemplyment and that will hopefully help pay for some of the bills. and you know, it's really nice to have a job that i don't DREAD going to every morning, so hanging on to it for a while longer will be cool. plus, i have a little crush on one of the other seasonals, and i'm hoping he's staying on after new year's too. i still don't know his last name or how old he is, so i could use a little more time to work on it :-)

Monday, December 15, 2003

i carry your heart

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

- e.e. cummings

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

dear lexus,

your advertizing team should be shot.

or at least fired.

your 'decemebr to remeber' commercials are the most asenine thing i've ever seen, not to mention the single most annoying holiday commercial ever. you know, the one where, like, the dog comes up and there's a key around it's neck, and then there's a lexus in the snowy driveway with a gigantic red bow on it. i mean, COME ON, PEOPLE! a car as a gift would be a nice thing, but not very many people would go out and buy a car without discussing it with their sig. other or something. i dont' know if it's that assumption that pisses me off more or the giant fucking red bow.

< /rant >

Saturday, December 6, 2003

newness all around!

i started my new job yesterday, and it was 8 hours filled with smiling too much (face still hurts, ow), repeating the same phrases over and over (how are you today? did you find everything you were looking for? credit or debit?), and really, really sore feet.

and i loved every minute of it!!

i've never worked for such a big place before - the store is really really big and there are something like 25 or 30 people that work there. i've already met a few super nice people, a guy who doesn't cashier but offered to answer any questions i had, a girl who has been there longer than me and is annoyed that i got to learn the register on my first day when no one has trained her yet, and all the managers are so cool and don't get annoyed when i interrupt them with really stupid questions.

the thing i hated the most about my old job was the sales, and thankfully there's none of that pressure now. just ringing things up and taking people's money. ;-)

obviously i have a new design. i was so excited when i found that mermaid over at stock stash (link on the left... i'm lazy) that i had to make somethign with it immediately. ;-) my theory is that i used to post a lot when i had designs i loved (like strawberry shortcake). lately i've been making really lo-fi layouts, and they never kept my interest very long. i guess i just need color and pictures. ;-)

one final thought: while christmas shopping, please stay calm. the person ringing you up is not your personal punching bag, they are not going slow on purpose, maybe it is their first day! be nice to them - it will give you good karma.

Tuesday, December 2, 2003

but i am le tired.

no matter how many time i watch it, the end of the world always cracks me up.

notice the prevalent use of abreevs! plus, i like it when hawaii says 'w00t'. teehee!

Sunday, November 30, 2003

funny funny

heard on live 105 today: the dj encouraging listeners to come to the not so silent night concert, not for the music, but to see his new mistletoe belt.

and why is it that when i'm just messing around, friendster works just fine, but when i actually have people to look up, it's not working? grrrr.

Friday, November 28, 2003

unemployment rules

it's been 1 week since my last day at the job from hell, and i can honestly say that unemployment is cooool. i've been enjoying myself for the past week, visiting with friends, shopping, eating way too much turkey, and mostly SLEEPING. i only felt caught up on my sleep yesterday. that's what hard core exhaustion can do, kids.

got my hair cut on wednesday. no photo, but i can say that it is short. shorter than last time, i think... when it's curly it's just about sholder length, a little longer when i blow dry it. lynn (my awesome stylist) always does a great job. she flat-irons my hair before i leave, which look sooooo good but i can never manage to do it myself... i can never reach the back.

in other exciting news, i got a call back on a job application i put in today! it's the only place i applied that i think i'd actually *like* to work. it's only a holiday job, but that is actually cool... if it sucks, i have a defininte end date. i'm going in on sunday to talk to the hiring manager, so think good thoughs for me!

well, tonight the old high school gang is supposedly going bowling. i haven't heard anything for a few hours, so we'll see. in the meantime, back to cleaning... my house needs some serious attention.

Monday, November 17, 2003

slave to the modem light

my internet was down almost all day yesterday, which SUCKED. you never realize how much you rely on (read: obsessed with) something until it's gone.

however, it's back on today, and my speed upgrade kicked in. it's bad ass, i tell you, bad ass.

four more days of work to go. I haven't seen the schedule yet, so i'm not sure of one of those days is a day off. it's a moot point by now, and i could use the extra $$, so if i am working all 4 days, it's no big deal.
although, that would mean that in the time between returning from vacation and my last day - 15 total days - i got 2 days off. yet another reason i'm leaving this SHITTY company.

although i've managed to leave everything on fairly good terms - as a little going away thingy for me, we're all going out before i leave. should be fun - i always had the most fun outside of work, when we'd go out for drinks, or to dinner. everyone's all excited - they think that just becasue i'm leaving, they can get me drunk, and on beer no less. I try to explain to my boss that i think beer is just about the foulest thing ever, but he doesn't buy it. i told him that he'll be buying me a bunch of soda. ;-)

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

speakeasy rules!

i love my ISP! i just upgraded my DSL speed and my monthly bill went DOWN by almost 20 bucks!

speakeasy rules. you should totally go check them out if you need DSL.

9 days left!

i quit my job last friday. this means that i only have 9 more days left before i get to run screaming from the hellhole that i've been working in for over a year. every second i spend at work feels like an eternity now. i can't WAIT until my exit interveiw, though - i'm going to give HR an earful... no breaks, working 6,7,8,9 days in a row without a day off, i could go on and on. but for now i jsut keep repeating "9 days left. 9 days left." 9 DAYS LEFT!

i got back from vacation 1 week ago today, and i've been avoiding the grocery store. i have no milk, no bagels, no veggies, no cream cheese, no regular cheese, and did i say no bagel? ugh. i have about a thousand other errands to run today, too, and i really don't want to leave my house.

also one week ago today - the simon and garfunkel concert. it was fucking AWESOME - not nessecarily the words you would hear connected to a reunion tour of a sixties folk duo, but fucking AWESOME is about all i can say. it was sone of those shows where every note blows you away, where you spend every second on the edge of your seate, trying to breathe the music in. totally worth the (rather expensive) ticket price.

on a totally random note - i love the internet. i just watched tonight's episode of the OC (my new favorite show) about 10 hours before it airs! ahhh, the age of technology is grand. ;-)

Friday, October 31, 2003

love that L.A. feeling

after weeks of anticipation, i'm FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY on vacation! the waether here in Hollywood is beautiful, i'm helping some friends move, and mentally preparing myself for the hollywood carnival tonight. i've decided to go as little red riding hood yet again - i'ts a different variation on the costume i usually wear, though. i'm still not sure. i have a few hours left to decide.

not smoke or fires visible form here, although i was tricked on the way down yesterday... over santa barbara there were a lot of grey clouds that looked a lot like smoke. i'm onnly worried about orange county - all the smoke from the san bernadino fires is blowing right over anaheim, and i hear disneyland is right in the path. hwatever, i'm hard core... i'm gonna go anyway. ;-)

ok, time to go move some boxes. more updates (and photos, too!) a little later.

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

a beach towel?!?

I heard on the radio today that a man sued his surgeon for leaving a 16x28 beach towel in his body for 3 months.

first - what the HELL was a beach towel doing in the operating room???

second - wouldn't you notice something like that? like, 'hey, this is a strange bulge i didn't have before! where did this come from?'

this whole thing grosses me out. the guy won his case, for 450,000. i don't know about you, but if that were me i'd want at least a few mil and the guy's medical liscence to run through my shredder. but then again, i do live in the lawsuit capital of the country. ;-)

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Kill Bill....

i went to see kill bill last weekend. it was an ok movie.. i was impressed with the artisitc detail, if not by the storyline, which was a little too violent for me. the thing that made it really hard to concentrate was the fact that there were SMALL CHILDREN in the audience. there were 4 boys, two that looked about 10, and two that looked about seven. SEVEN! and they were with their PARENTS! what kind of assholes take their kids to a movie like that? ASSHOLES.

Tuesday, October 7, 2003

moving to oregon now.


that is all.

how is the housing market in oregon? anyone?

Friday, September 26, 2003

busy busy bee

things here have been busy...

new housemate moved in this week, a friend of my sister's who's finishing up with school. she's very nice. tonight we discovered that the cable in her room doesn't work. must add 'call cable company' to my to do list.

been working entirely too much. have had headache for 4 days. had my reveiw today, boss said nice things. was hard to not burst out laughing during interview, since boss is talking about me having a promotion by christmas. funny since he doesn't know i am quitting. !!!

(i wouldn't want a promotion anyway, too much hassle, only $1 per hour more than i am already making. what a rip.)

saw tuvan throat singers last weekend. was AMAZING. highly reccomended, even if you're not a fan of 'world music'. have to go pick up tickets for bobby mcferrin and ladysmith black mambazo, too.

watched too much tv... premeire week was good, am loving friends, ed, west wing, Miss match (good new show).

was going to do the friday 5 for the hell of it, but hey! no q's this week. i guess on that note, i'll crawl to bed. still exhausted even after a 3 hour nap this afternoon. *sigh* can't wait to quit. can't wait can't wait can't wait.

Thursday, September 11, 2003

A Simple Prayer

Lord, make me an insturment of your peace
Where there is hatred, let me sow love
Where there is injury... pardon.
Where there is doubt... faith.
Where there is despair... hope.
Where there is darness...light.
Where theere is sadness... joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may
not so much seek
To be consoled, as to console.
To be understood, as to understand,
To be loved, as to love,

For it is in giving that we receive,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
It is in dying that we are born to eternal life.


-St. Francis

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

john mayer

i don't want a governator!

the thought that arnold schwarzenegger might be our next govenor scares me.

it should scare you too.

if it doesn't, read this: 50 Reasons Not to Vote for Arnie, from the santa cruz metro. well, read it regardless... not only is it informative, it's funny! ;-)

and be sure that you're registered to vote by september 22! and then actually GO VOTE!

< / public service announcement >

Sunday, September 7, 2003

proof that MTV isn't totally worthless

john mayer's new CD doesn't come out for 2 more days, but i've been listening to it all day today, in it's entirety, thanks to MTV.

you can't tell by my writing, but right now i'm nearly hyperventilating, i'm so excited.

ok, not really hyperventilating, but i'm still SO STOKED (as my 9th grade science teacher used to say!).

i really like all the tracks... i may end up liking some even more than i do right now, but i won't know until i see the lyrics... great lyrics can make even the most beautiful music better.

anyway, go take a listen yourself!

john mayer - heavier things

i reccommend homelife, clarity, and daughters. take a look at the video while you're there too... my friend danny is in it! ;-)

Saturday, September 6, 2003

so, so sad.

currently, it is 10:45 pm here in santa cruz california. it's saturday night, i don't have to work tomorrow, and right now i have big, big plans.

i'm going to turn off my computer, my stereo and my tv and... go to sleep.

by the way, did i mention that it's 10:45 on a SATURDAY?

this is just depressing.

i mean, i've never been a party girl, and i'm more likely to say up late making mixes or talking to my friends on IM, but to be tired enough (after a day of doing virtually nothing) to go to bed at 10:45 on a saturday? *sigh*. i think i'm getting old.

goals for my day off tomorrow:
- balance my checkbook.
- take out the garbage.
- do a few loads of laundry.
- get a life.

Thursday, September 4, 2003

i know it might be wrong...

Stacy's Mom by Fountains of Wayne is the catchiest fucking thing i've heard in AGES.

and it's catchy in a good way, not that 'i want to tear my hair out because it's stuck in my head' way.

Monday, September 1, 2003

so.... tired....

i hate labor day because it's the end of the summer, but i love it because fun things always happen on 3 day weekends!

i spent my free time this year at the church retreat, which was great. a carnival, a variety show, scary men in grass skirts going by the names of ugg and other ugg (no kidding!) and the best part of camp... prank wars! the girls started off by removing the door to the boys cabin and hiding it. plans to t.p. the boys cabin were ruined by a locked door and , and then the boys struck back by removing all the mattresses from the beds in our cabin and placing them in our bathroom. our attempt to string their cabin was foiled (and we were almost done, too!!) and by then the weekend was over. we've got some great tricks up our sleeves for next year though! ;-)

i was up really late both nights, so i was going to go to sleep early tonight, but then i just happened to see a commercial saying that they're premeiring john mayer's new video tonight at 11. guess i'm going to bed at 11 now. *sigh*. i never get enough sleep!

Monday, August 25, 2003


i was all set to berate myself as a slacker for abandoning my blog yet again, but you know, after getting up at 5:45 am and working an 11 hour day, all i really want to do is sit on my couch and read and drink smoothies.

(BTW, pine-orange-bannana juice, pineapples, strawberries, peaches and lemon sorbet make a DAMN good smoothie.)

Saturday, August 16, 2003

yes, i DO need another cd.

it has been a good week for cd purchases!

during my last two trips to target, i picked up cd's by rooney, daniel bedingfield, josh kelly, and junior senior.

rooney was a fluke, i heard about half of blueside on the radio and decided that i needed the cd. usually i am scared to buy a cd before i hear it (aka downloading it off kazaa), becasue nothing is worse than buying a cd and having it totally suck except for the one song you heard on the radio. but rooney is very good. it's a combination of california beach music and classic british pop, if such a combination is possible. it's good stuff.
i've wanted the daniel bedingfield cd for a while, but i can't stand paying more than 12 bucks for a cd, and since it's not a new release, it was never on sale. i was lucky i saw the tiny sign that said 9.99 on sale!

Sunday, August 10, 2003

wide open spaces

back in the day, when i bought my first computer, i was amazed at it's huuuge 4 gig hard drive. i recall my dad telling me, 'you'll never use up all that space'.

three years later, when i moved into the dorms at ucsc i discovered the joy that was the ethernet, and with it, the coolness of etree! i could download phish shows off the internet and burn them myself! no more b&p's! needless to say, that 4 gig hard drive seemed awfully small all of a sudden.

it was about time for a new computer anyway, and with the help of a $750 computer grant from ucsc (!!!) i bought my current computer, with a 40 gig hard drive. 10 times biggger than the last one... i'd really never use up all that space.

wrong again... the other day i realized that my hard drive was full. and since this time i didn't have a chunk of money to buy a new computer, i went to costco and picked up a new 120 gig hard drive. after 3 days of backing up my files, i took my computer apart only to realize that i needed more stuff to install the hard drive... then once i got it in the computer and all connected, it kept telling me that there was boot disk failure... but i got it working and now i have 2 hard drives with 152 gigs of space. ;-)

this is monumental for me in other ways... i remember being so scared of the inside of a computer.... worried that i would break something, so i was always getting other people to install stuff for me. but now i've installed a new hard drive with no help, and i feel like i've come such a long way. ;-) i love being a geek.

Wednesday, July 30, 2003

work sucks.

today was one of those days at work that just never seemed to end. it just dragged on and on and on and as the day progresssed we all just got tired and worn out and by the end of the day no one was even trying.

we're really understaffed right now... i've been working weekends for over a month now, which isn't too bad, i still get 2 days off, but weekends are only 4 hour days, so my paychecks have been smaller. monday i complained about that (the cutback in hours) and hey! today my problem was solved.... we're losing one of our co-workers to another office for at least 2 weeks, so now we all get to work 6 days a week.


thank god i have the next two days off, or i'd go insane. i've worked the past 6 days in a row. i am so tired right now i can't believe i'm even typing this. i barely had the energy to heat up my leftovers for dinner tonight.

on a happier note, becasue i did good in my sales in may (gak. i hate even writing that. i hate working in sales SO MUCH.), i won a $100 macy's gift certificate! so yesterday, i went to the mall and bought ralph lauren towels. on SALE. they are pink and turquoise and soft and BEAUTIFUL. then when i went to pay, i found out that they were taking off the sales tax, so i still have $10 left on my gift card. plus i'm about 99% sure that i will get another $100 this month, plus a $50 bonus! although i probably should consider that $50 already spent since that's how much i spent on new books yesterday. ;-)

OMG, i actually just fell asleep at my desk. lol! ok, i'm going to go curl up in bed and listen to some simon & garfunkel and fall alseep reading the new ethan hawke novel and sleep FOREVER.

Thursday, July 24, 2003

dead men tell no tales...

so tonight, i finally forced myself to get in the car and drive to the movies to see pirates of the carribean. it's one of my favorite rides at disneyland, so i was super excited to see the movie. in my opinion johnny depp was born to play a pirate.

when i got to the theater, i found out that thursdays are 'family nights', so i got a ticket for $4.50!!! i never go to the movies because it's too damn expensive, but now i'll be headed out every thursday... with such cheap tickets i can actually afford to get popcorn and junior mints. ;-)

the movie was great... it had awesome special effects, johhny depp was amazing... i've read reviews that he seemed more like a drag queen than a drunk pirate, but i didn't think so... maybe it was just all that eyeliner. the movie was long, but i wasn't bored at all. i liked the little bits from the ride that they put in the movie... the part with the pirates in jail, trying to get the keys from the dog... and where geoffrey rush says, "avast, ye bloomin' cockroachers!". being the huge disney geek that i am i totally recognized those parts. ;-)

i am all over the $4.50 movies, though. maybe next week i will go see legally blonde 2.

Monday, July 21, 2003

only in santa cruz....

while riding the giant dipper tonight, i was two cars behind an older man and his girlfriend that were actually smoking pot on the ride. for real. like, you could see them passing their glass piece in the photo they take of you going down the second hill. i mean, come on... who smokes pot on a roller coaster?!?

*shakes head...* yup. only in santa cruz.

Sunday, July 20, 2003

music music music

week in review -

monday - still reeling from phish, i made the trek up to concord to see the counting crows and john mayer. this is cool because i couldn't afford to pay full price to see them at shoreline, but then i got super cheap lawn tickets for concord, which is a great venue, but is far away and 100 degrees at 7pm. ick. got in to the venue right as maroon5 were finishing their set (boohoo) and grabbed a spot on the lawn. counting crows come on, and they are even better than i had imagined. i've loved the crows since their first album came out in 1993, yet i had never seen them in concert before. they broke out friend of the devil, which was positively gorgeous. debbie just about had a conniption fit. we decided that that song alone was worth the price of admission. we were very annoyed by these two drunk girls next to us who were being totally obnoxious. john came out to play his set and the girls got more annoying, so we yelled at them until they left. actually, debbie went over an politely told them to shut the hell up, but i would have preferred option one. debbie kept saying, 'i want john to bust out some phish!' i was laughing, thinking, yeah right, fat chance! so during neon, him and the guitarist from maroon 5 are trading off solos, and what does john do? he breaks out into the opening riff from STASH! me and debbie freaked out. it was so so so cool. ;-) those two events made the concert more than worth the price of admission (7.50 each!). this was the third time i've seen john mayer in a year and a half, and i'll go see him every time he comes within 150 miles of me. ;-)

tuesday - day off. went to target, costco. came home. read 375 page book. went to bed.

wednesday - after work, met up with the kids from youth group at the boardwalk. rode the giant dipper, the carousel, the bumper cars, and, because i'm totally stupid, the teacups. i am way too old for that ride. but even though it made me ill, i still had fun!

thursday - another day off. stayed home all day. was nice.

friday - sucky day at work. came home and collapsed on the couch for a while, them me and my sister went down to the boardwalk to see TIFFANY. yes, that tiffany. we shoved our way to the front, snapped some great photos, and sang along to "i think we're alone now". my inner child was so so happy that night. now all i need is to see debbie gibson in concert and i will be complete! ;-)

saturday - work again. then me, my sister and a couple of her friends went to see superbooty! everyone was dressed all funky and the show was very good. i will definetly be seeing them next time they come through town.

today - after only i few hors of sleep, i drug myself to work, then drug myself home, and forced myself to say awake so i wouldn't totally screw up my sleep schedule. and now, i think i've tortured myself long enough! time for bed!! goodnight! ;-)

Saturday, July 12, 2003

rubber chef

i make a mean breakfast burrito.

i like cooking, but since i'm usually cooking for one, that rules out almost everything in my martha stweart cookbook. so i'm a pro at ramen, grilled cheese, mac and cheese, and turkey sandwiches. but i did develop the perfect breakfast burrito recipe, which i will now share with all two of you who will read this. ;-)

2 eggs
2 medium yukon gold potatos
sliced white mushrooms
onion (i've used all kinds, but prefer sweet Maui's)
smoked gouda cheese
green onions
sausage (i use 2 morningstar farms veggie sausage patties).
tortillas ( trader joe's' handmade flour are the best)
olive oil
season salt

peel and cube potatos. (the smaller they are cut, the faster they cook.)

cut 1 or 2 thick slices of onion (depending on how much onion you like). chop it up into small pieces. also chop up the sliced mushrooms, as many as you want.

grate gouda cheese until you have a small handful. cut green onions, you'll also want a small handful. set the cheese and green onions aside in a bowl.

toss potatos, onion and mushrooms in a pan with some olive oil. cook over medium high heat, stirring occasionally so you don't burn it. season with season salt to taste. cook until brown, then set the pan aside .

while you are cooking the potato/onion/mushroom mix, scramble the eggs in a bowl. add about half of the cheese and green onions. save the rest.

in a new pan, scramble the eggs. i use a rubber spatula to make sure that the eggs are in crumbly small pieces. (does that make any sense?) cook until done (runny eggs in a breakfast burrito are nasty!) add to potato mix, set pan on low heat.

microwave veggie sausage, chop unto small pieces. (real meat sausage is ok too!) add chopped sausage to mix.

season to taste, sprinkle remaining cheese on top.

wrap in warm flour tortillas, and chow down!

this recipe makes about 3 medium size burritos, 2 for dinner and one for breakfast the next morning. yum!

if anyone tries this recipe, let me know how it turns out!

Friday, July 11, 2003

back in the saddle again...

so, i have been taking an extended break from the internet, as well as an extended break from the gym, form reading, from sleeping, and from laughing. but i am back. i feel like i have things to say, and i hate that i am not writing stuff down due to sheer laziness and not wanting to put in the effort of typing. i don't care so much if people read this... to me it's a good way to keep track of what i've been up to... someday i'll go back and read all this suff and remember the little details and be happy that i made the effort.

common ground tour this year was great! tour, for those of you who don't know, is when i hop on a bus with 40 other people, mostly teenagers, and drive for long periods of time. oh, yeah, we do concerts every night, too, since we're a youth choir, but tour is really defined by the bus. we went all the way to Vancouver and back in 9 days!! this year was my third year as an adult sponsor, and the whole thing was positively amazing. i did the choir for 3 years back in high school, so in a way, this year feels like my senior year all over again. i feel like i'm closer to a lot of the kids this year than i ever was with anyone when i was in the choir, which is kinda weird. but a lot of my 'favorite' kids have graduated, so they won't be back next year, which is a little sad. but this tour was definetly one of the best i've ever been on.

going back to work sucked. found out that one of my friends got promoted. this is good for him, he's a good guy and a hard worker, and he deserved it. bad news is that they moved him to another office. sad for me since he was the one person at work i would actually consider a friend. boo-hoo. working weekends now. that helped a lot this week, but just sucks in general. getting up early on saturday AND sunday sucks frozen hose water. that's enough about that.

saw phish the last two nights. i'd just like to say that PHISH RULES. these shows were especially exciting becasue i can remeber a time not so long ago when i wasn't sure if i'd ever see a phish show again. although they were not the best shows i've seen, they were both good, solid shows and i had a blast.
wednesday, saw the show with d. this is the first time we've seen a phish show together since 98. we walked on te lawn just as the show started... it was great timing. it was a great show... I especially enjoyed Bathtub Gin, the new song (Scents and Subtle Sounds) and boogie on reggae woman. that and the AC/DC bag. i love a good AC/DC Bag. ;-) made it out of the lot in record time... made it back to my parents house before midnight. miracle!
thursday, debbie, jon, katlynn and i went out about 4 pm so we could hang out in the lot for a while. it was katlynn's first show, which was exciting. i made her an apron top and bought her a ticket for her graduation/19th birthday present. the shirt turned out remarkably well since i was making it up as i went along, and started working on it 2 hours before i was supposed to pick her up! the lot was cool... they actually had an aisle set up for vending... which was way cool since the cops always used to bust people for it. maybe they finally realized that it was going to happen no matter what. debbie got a cool mango shirt, and bought me and katlynn pretty hemp/flower/ribbon wreaths for our hair. ran into some pb's, and one of my friends from ucsc, which was way cool. we staked out a great spot on the lawn close to the center... we could see the screen and the lights. i thought it was a great show... i was excited to hear lawnboy and divided sky. debbie totally called dwd right before it happened, which was totally cool. and the rift encore was awesome, and i thought ofericalynnthrough the whole thing. all in all, it was a good night, and katie enjoyed the show, which made me happy.

tonight was not nearly exciting... i watched the wedding planner on tv and had a smoothie for dinner. now i'm anxiously awaiting monday night, when i will drive up to concord to see john mayer and counting crows in concert!!! one of the reasons i love summer is all the great shows that come to the bay area... i just wish that i had more money and free time to check them all out... just like i wish that i didn't have to get up tomorrow morning for work.

Tuesday, May 13, 2003


yet another day off down the drain.

i had high hopes for today, but they were foiled by a sore throat and stuffy nose. it was all i could do to get off the couch. i'm going to bed in about 10 minutes... and i don't have to be to work until 830 tomorrow, so i'm hoping a good night's sleep will help. i can't afford to skip work, so i guess it really doesn't matter if i feel better, but i hope i do. it sucks to work while you're sick.

spent sunday in a shopping... me, my mom and grama went to ikea. we left san jose at 9am and didn't get back until 9:30 pm. i only spent $300... my big purchase was a jennylund chair (but in white, not red stripes). i also got a zaftig inflatable square thing, which i think was intended to be a kid's toy, but works great as an ottoman. i got a fuzzy white slipcover for it that has ears and a tail.... looks like a bunnyrabbit. it creeps my sister out because it dont's have a face on it, but whatever. also got some lamps, picture frames, a colander, some blue wood stain for my desk, and new frying pans. it's a good thing i stayed away from the dishes.... otherwise i might have come home with some. i have a slight obsession with dishes, which is silly since all i ever actually use are the corningware ones i got a at kmart. ;-)

found out that ed didn't get canceled. this is a good thing.... love that show. i think i've only missed three episodes of it since it started. :-)

ugh, is it really almost 11? i need to go to sleep!

Thursday, May 8, 2003

where does the time go??

man, one day i blink and all of a sudden it's may? what the hell?

and what the hell is with this weather? it rained today. rain in may? come on.

life is still working, working, working. there are times when i wish i had a life. but other time, i love the fact that after an exhausting day at the job from hell, i can come home, make some mac and cheese, and read, or watch tv without worrying about anyone else. it's a nice feeling.

after way too much time troubleshooting, i am writing this post with zempt! i can't believe how long it took me to set up an offline blogging client, considering how often my computer crashes, which subsequently causes me to lose posts. normally it's annoying, but now that i have so little 'free time', i never feel like re-typing.

i got my e-mail from phish the other day, telling me that i got all the tickets i mail-ordered for. this is v. exciting, since i didn't get mail order last time. plus me and D get to see phish together for the first time since 1998!

D also go tix to see coldplay, but i have tickets to see champions on ice the same night. i chose champions on ice. geeky, arent' i?

things are looking good for our memorial day bbq, too. we're doing it on saturday, because we figure that it will be less crowded. should be fun... good friends, good food, and hopefully by the end of the month we'll have some sun! and i learned my lesson last time... i'll wear lots of sunscreen this year!!!

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

organic is bettah!

i never, ever get out of work when i'm supposed to. this is one of the billion things on the the list of things that suck about my job. but tonight, for the first time in months, i got off of work just in time to swing by the farmers market before it closed.

the famers market in santa cruz is small, but very cool. pretty much everything is organic, and they sell my favorite kind of bread there! most weeks, though, i don't have a lot of money, and i've never been an adventurous eater, so i usually stick to the staples. bread, lettuce, broccoli, strawberries, carrots, etc. what i really wanted today was apples, but i didn't see any. that's another drawback of my work schedule... lots of the farmers are already packing up (or gone) by the time i get there.

i love buying the organic stuff, though, because once i get past the fact that the fruits and veggies don't always look perfect, everything seems to taste better. mmmm.

Monday, April 21, 2003


i am a big slacker.

for example, i did not file my taxes until april 15th. as if that wasn't bad enough, i didn't even do them until about 11 am on the 15th.

i was totally going to do my taxes early. i mean, why not? why put off getting all my money back, and really, how hard can it be?


another example - this new design has been done for about 4 days, and i just didn't put it up.

i am determined not to be a slacker tomorrow, though.... the back bedroom in my house has recently been vacated for the first time in over a year, and i am reclaiming it as my office, and i have a lot of furniture to move! i managed to cram one of the couches in there, i got a new bookshelf, and i'm moving a table and an end table from the living room. plus the tv and computer are moving, too. i'm hoping that the absence of electronic distractions in my bedroom will help me sleep better.

my bedroom's getting a makeover, too... i splurged at target and bought some new bedding. it was expensive, so i'm keeping it in the packages in case it goes on clearance sometime soon. all i need now is a big cushy chair and an ottoman. mmm, ikea, anyone?

Saturday, April 19, 2003

i'm not that person!

i was totally going to do my taxes early. i mean, why not? why put off getting all my money back, and really, how hard can it be?

so, yeah, i did my taxes and filed them on the 15th. hah.

Sunday, March 30, 2003

happiness is a cherry slurpee

today after work, i stopped at 7-11 and got my first cherry slurpee of the year... welcome to spring!

spring in santa cruz is a lot like fall in santa cruz, which are both remarkably like summer in santa cruz, except with less tourists. and now that the sun is out and it's not cold anymore, it's time to start packing my lunch and walking to the beach on my lunch break! on friday i went down to the wharf and had clam chowder and a shrimp cocktail at riva, and followed it up with a little window shopping and an ice cream cone at marini's. it was the nicest, most relaxing lunch break i've had since i started this job 7 months ago. i'll definetly be doing that again soon (but i'll skip lunch at riva... that place is definetly overrated).

cherry slurpees are definetly one of those foods that brings back memories (but is a slurpee really food? i digress...). senior year of high school, me and d would get cherry slurpees after musical rehearsal... after youth group, a bunch of people would drive to the 7-11 and get slurpees and sit on the curb. the best time to have a slurpee is after 10 pm, the best thing about slurpees is mixing them (i prefer cherry coke, myself), the worst thing about slurpees is that they melt way too fast! on that note, time to go throw mine in the freezer so i can enjoy it later!

Thursday, March 27, 2003

give me a reason...

i am having motivational problems lately.

every day i get up with grand ambitions of what i will do that day, and i inevitably end up working, coming home exhausted, making dinner, and crawling into bed around 10:30.

i figure that my days off will be a bit more productive, since i don't have the tedious ten-hour chore of working, but nooo. i sleep in, and rarely get in the shower before 4pm. granted, i still get more done on my days off than on other days, but still! i have so much to do and no energy to do any of it!

it's really sad, i don't even have enough motivation to sit down and write to my best friend in philly, whom i havent' talked to in months. now if that's not sad, i don't know what is.


i am out of diet coke. this is not good, as i have taken to buying sodas from the machine across the street from my work, which does not have any diet soda at all. we have bottled water at work, and i know i should drink that. oh, if only water had caffiene in it.


i'll admit he was never my favorite member of *nsync. i was a fan of JC myself. but after seeing the rolling stone photos ( yum yum), and now the new video, i must admit it. justin timberlake is HOT. maybe it's the goatee. hmmm.

Friday, March 21, 2003

so much to say, so little time.

it's not like i don't have things to say lately.

on the contrary, i have a billion things running through my head, and every time i try to sit down and write, i just can't. it's very strange. i hate writers block.

the other day i was sitting on my couch, watching all the war coverage, and i was having flashbacks to when i was twelve. the first gulf war started two days before my twelfth bithday, and i remember being really upset. i'm no less upset about it this time, but i can't even begin to put my thoughts into words, becasue i'm very conflicted about the whole thing. but i will say that war sucks.

tomorrow will be fun, though, because i am going to a coustume party. i am very excited, because my friend amica has great parties. i have the best costume ever... i am going as queen of the fucking universe. oh yeah. ;-) i can't wait to see what everyone else is dressed up as, but i can't think of anything that will be better than queen of the fucking universe. the fact that i have sunday off work will make the party even more enjoyable. ;-)

i am so tempted to but the vines cd, simply becasue the cover art is so damn cool. i also want to get the zwan cd. billy corgan is super cool.

anoyone have any great music they've heard lately that i should buy/download/listen to?

Tuesday, March 11, 2003

procrastination station

i really, really need to do my taxes.

and go to the store. and do laundry. and clean my room. but of course, i am not doing any of these things, i am reading and listening to my new cd's. see, books and music have always been my preferred mode of procrastination. i remember being a teenager and getting in trouble for reading instead of doing... whatever it was i was supposed to be doing.

so now, i have all these things i should be doing, but last week i stopped by the bookshop and picked up three new books - the 25th hour, written by my creative writing t.a. from UCI, my date with satan, (short stories) and a first edition advance readers copy of bee season. i wo'nt even go into the seven or eight others in my 'to read' pile!

add to that the 9 cd's i got this weekend, and i'm just in heaven. i can't see my floor, but i'm in heaven!

i've also been killing myself on my days off, trekking all over the bay are to see shows. first moe, then dark star at the fillmore, and this past saturday i went to see a triple-bill at the catalyst... the thermals, the velvet teen, and death cab for cutie. i was going primarily to see death cab, and i had never heard of teh other two bands, as i'm not really so much into indie rock (if that's what you call it.. i never know). i liked the first song that the thermals did, but after that, it quickly fell into the 'every damn song sounds the same' category. the velvet teen was up next, and i liked them a lot. the lead singer has a jeff buckley quality to his voice, which was very cool. and death cab for cutie was awesome, of course. the show went late, and i had to work the next morning, but it was all worth it.

and on that note, in youth group, me and the other 'grown-ups' have a motto... "if it wasn't for the very last second, nothing would ever get done'. ;-) amen!

Thursday, February 20, 2003

gimme some moe. baby!

phew! it's been a busy week!

work is, beleive it or not, getting better. we have a new manager who actually knows how to manage, plus he changed the schedule so i can come in at 8 again, instead of 7:30. this makes me very very happy. i never realized how much difference a half an hour of sleep can make. plus i'm really pretty amazed that work is getting better... i mean, it's still not my thing and i can't wait to find something better, but for now, it'll do.

tomorrow is going to be a good day... after work, i'm jumping in my car and buzzing up to the fillmore to see moe.!! i am sooooo excited - i love moe. and last time they were here in cali, i was broke. this will be the first time i've seen them since 2000! then tomorrow, a long overdue haircut, a pedicure, and debbie and jon's pisces party. i can't wait.

oh - cool new band alert.... minus the bear. alex told me about them and i am totally obsessed now. check out thanks for the killer game of crisco twister. best song i've heard in a long time. it will rock your socks off.

Friday, February 14, 2003

happy valentines day to me!

well, i'm proud to say that this is my 8th consecutive *single* valentines day. i'm actually past the point of it being depressing... i mean, the whole thing is a fabricated holiday developed by hallmark so they could make a zillion dollars on cards. i figure at the very least i'm saving myself some money. ;-)

i do treat myself to something special on v-day, though! i think this year, now that i'm home from work, i'll take a long, hot shower, slather myself in some yummy smelling lotion, and curl up in bed with popcorn and a good movie. maybe clerks. or margaret cho... we'll see.

actually, valentines day is never really depressing becasue it's my buddy donna's birthday!! so, happy 24th, d! hope you're having a blast in ohio!!

Wednesday, February 12, 2003

so fresh so clean

today was a day from hell. you know, one of those days that goes from blah to lame to sucky to mind-numbingly awful. i was so happy when work was over that i went out and bought myself a pint of haagen dazs. mmm.

as pissed as i am about frenchie getting kicked off american idol, i think in the end this will work in her favor. she's going to get so much media attention in the next few days, and she'll probably be signed by the american idol folks or someone else. you know, there is really no such thing as bad press.

i suggest going to if you wan't to protest her removal from the show, they've collected addresses, names and phone numbers for all the important people. i reccomend writing to the sponsors of american idol as well (coke, old navy, herbal essences, att wireless, ford) and tell them that you'll no longer be buying their products. but skip signing the online petition, those don't work.

it rained in santa cruz today. and now everything smells fresh and clean.

this is good. i could use a clean start tomorrow. ;-)

Saturday, February 8, 2003

random thoughts.

somehow, and i'm not sure how it happened, but i am the number one search result when you search yahoo for frenchie davis. ?? so, so strange. and wouldn't you think that the american idol website would be in the top 20? nope. strange. very strange. see for yourself!

tonight i am going to see chicago with d and renee. i am excited. see, i love love love musicals. i love movie musicals more. i am very excited about the return of the movie musical... there is no where else where people can get away with reaking into song than in a dark theater, and so few people go to see real theater, so movie musicals can bring this to many more people.... plus there are things you just can't do in a live show, so the movie versions of musicals are a bit more spectacular, and we all know that spectacle = goodness. ;-)

i think i am babbling. i have a great idea for a redesign (this one is just for the interim... ) but it will take a while... it's a challenge, so i like it. ;-) anyway, we'll see how long it takes.

UPDATE, 2/12/03
ok, so i am really pissed about frenchie getting kicked off amerian idol.
i, for one, will no longer be watching the show, since she was the only one worth watching it for.

Sunday, February 2, 2003

i love tv

mmm, i love tv.

caught the premier of dragnet tonight. it was really good. of course, i haven't seen the original (gasp!) so i don't really have anything to compare it with... but i really enjoyed it. it reminded me a lot of law and order (which i love), so i wan't surprised to see that dick wolf was the producer.

and isn't law and order addictive? man, i (fondly) remember when i was unemployed, and i'd watch law and order 4 or 5 times a day. even now that i'm workign full time, i still manage to watch law and order at least 3 or 4 times a week! my favorite right now is criminal intent... vincent d'onofrio is so hot! i love the crazy genius type. ;-)

speaking of tv - oh my god, i LOVE american idol. my money's on frenchie davis all the way... not only does she have that diva presence, but holy shit, she can SING! so, i expect everyone to call and vote for her at least once every time she performs. . ;-)

in reveiw: dragnet - good. american idol - better. frenchie davis - fabulous. so... go forth and vote! ;-)

Monday, January 27, 2003

work... sucks?

so, today at work i had my thirty day reveiw. this is hysterical since i have been working at my current job since the end of august. my boss had mostly good things to say about me, most notably that:

1. i have a good attitude (which i do, considering the shit-hole job i work at)

2. that i am motivated (which i most decidedly am not, thank you theater arts degree)


3. that i'm always looking for ways to make things more efficent (that's because these people do stuff so screwy that it takes ten minutes to do something that should take 10 seconds).

the only mildly negative said during the reveiw was that if i ever wanted to get promoted i should dress better. well, first of all, considering i'm running around, inside and outside all day, dressing nicer would be dumb... i'd be totally uncomfortable. plus, i hope i'm not at this place long enough to get promoted!

i'm grossly underpaid as it is... i'm a college graduate and i work 40 hrs + a week at a job where there is little down time and i get paid 11 dollars an hour. ELEVEN DOLLARS AN HOUR. these people are robbing me blind... i figure at the least i am worth $14. at the least!! if the job market wasn't so shitty right now i'd be out of there so fast, they wouldn't even realize i was gone.

all in all, though, the job is getting better, not worse. i still complain about it a lot, but i'm not coming home wanting to put my head in the oven anymore, so that's good. but if the job fairy is reading, how about sending me a great, $15-17/hr gig where i can wear jeans and sneakers to work? pretty please??

Monday, January 20, 2003

hey look! i'm back!

ok, so when i thought i would take a short break from blogging to deal with... well, december, i didn't think i would be gone for so long. but you know, i wanted a redesign, and then i changed hosts, and so i had to reinstall mt, etc etc. excuses are fun. this whole thing seems a bit like my situation with the gym. i'm going tomorrow! really!!

so, december was busy but good. christmas was good. new years was geeky but good. and now its' almost february! tomorrow i will be 24 and one week. i had a great birthday.... me and my mom went to the monterey bay aquarium. i took a ton of photos. some of the good ones are up in my new photoblog. yes! photoblog! i back-posted some photos as well because i needed a few days up to get the design to work. ;-)

so, tomorrow is my day off. i have a tendency to sleep all day on my day off, even though i start off with good intentions about getting up up at a reasonable hour and doing errands, laundry, dishes, etc. tomorrow my goals are jsut to go to the gym and the post office. that is all. i'm all about starting small.

actually, starting small has been working for me lately. for example - last month i switched to diet soda. those who know me realize what a big deal this is. this month, i am trying to kick fast food. so far i am doing very well with this. since jan. 1st, i have not had any fast food at all. this is also a big deal. this is the same way i stopped eating red meat... i just decided and that was it. now if only i could decide just to go to the gym 3 times a week!