definetly a trick.

happy halloween, all!

i think someone is playing a trick on me... i haven't gotten a single e-mail all day. not one. not even spam. there is definetly somehting strange going on!

so, it being halloween and all, i was excited about going downtown to see all the crazy people dressed up. dowtown sc is a great place to go for halloween - it reminds me of west hollywood, but much much much smaller. so, i'm all hyped up, and then i wake up this morning with a horrible migraine, so i have to call in sick to work... i manage to get in for a half day (i need the $$) and by this time i'm feeling tired and icky. my sister is giving me a hard time about not going out, so i got dressed, put on all my makeup, and then i deceided i wasn't going out, so i took a shower and watched will and grace. it was nice.

i have a confession to make... i bought the new christina aguilera cd on tuesday. actually, that's not so much of a confession since everyone knows i like her anyway. but yeah, the cd is great. way way way better than i expected it to be. (i'm watching jay leno and he just made a great joke... 'if you don't know what to wear for halloween, just go naked and say you're christina aguilera.' hah!) so yeah, i don't really expect anyone to beleive me, but i'll say it anyway, the cd is good. go listen to it, or not. ;-)

eeew, work!

god, i barely have time to recover from training and then i have to go back to work!! *shudder*.

so, i've decided that i really don't like my job and i'd like to quit. of course, with the constant flow of money, i've gone a bit crazy, and now i can't really quit my job unless i want to cancel my cable and phone and dsl and start living on ramen. of course, i don't even have the option of quitting the gym, which is great for motivation, but lousy if the money stops. never mind the fact that they just spent almost a thousand dollars sending me to training. although, the fact that my boss is a jackass sort of negates any guilt i would feel about that.

so, now starts the fun - spedning my days off looking for another job! actually, i'm also looking into going back to school to get a teaching credential... there's a program in scotts valley that i'm trying to get more info on. hopefully i can start in january.

anyway, tonight i met up with d and renee and went to watch renee's martial arts class. it's called eskrima, and it's pretty cool. me and d are thinking of joining the class... although i'm not sure i could handle it because they work with knives (fake knives, of course) and i'm not sure i could have somoene swinging a knife at me without freaking out, fake or no. plus it costs money, and i'm not sure i want to spend another $40 bucks a month. although, i could just stop buying shit at bare escentuals... hmmm. anyway, we're going back in a few weeks to watch the real teacher (he was out of town tonight). might be interesting.

disneyland

i'm sore and tired, but damn, this was a great weekend!

saturday, my mom and i got up at 5 am to fly out to orange county. we got in out rental car and drove straight to disneyland! we got there about 9:15, rode the shuttle in, and bought our tickets for dineyland and california adventure. as we were waiting to go into disneyland, the man in front of us asked us if we wanted to be his guests... basically he had some sot of annual pass thing where he could get himself plus 3 other people into the parks, and it was just him and his daughter that day.. so, basically, we got in totally free. it was so cool.

we had a great time - we went on indiana jones and the haunted mansion holiday (they re-did the ride with a nightmare before christmas theme), had lunch in new orleans square, wandered around california adventure and rode soaring over california, possibly the coolest ride i've ever been on, ever. we had dinner at the rainforest cafe, watched parts of game one on the big screens they had set up while we shopped at downtown disney, went back to california adventure and hung out some more, saw the end of the electrical parade, went back into disneyland, rode pirates, saw the end of fantasmic, rode a few more rides, and finally left at about 1245 am. it was a really long day, but really really fun. it was also neat to be so close to the world series... even though we were surrounded by angels fans. every time we saw anyone wearing orange and black, we'd yell "go Giants!", and they'd yell right back. it was great. so anyway, we got back to the hotel around 115, went to sleep around two, and walked out of the hotel at 8am to get breakfast and catch our flight back to san jose.

crazy, huh?

almost as crazy as the game today - so exciting i could hardly stand it!! i don't normally watch basball, but damn! i couldn't stop! ;-)

ugh, i go back to training tomorrow... waah. long boring days learning stuff i already know, sleeping in a strange hotel, eating icky fast food and no internet access. shoot me now. well, at least there's cable!

training sucks

training sucks frozen hose water.

that is all.

books.

i have a problem.

i have no more room on my bookshelves.

i can't help the fact that every time i go into bookshop i end up buying something!! tonight i bought five books... the boy next door, the fig eater, their eyes were watching god, icy sparks, and altar music.

add white oleander, the wind up bird chronicle, a desert in bohemia, man crazy, the master of all desires, gospel, and the feast of love (which i'm reading right now), i'll be busy for a while!!

i'm going to bring about 5 of these, plus all my knitting, to 'training'. without having to worry about laundry or dishes or cleaning, i can devote my time to the good things in life - books, yarn, tv and sleep! though i do hope the hotel i end up in has a gym. ;-)

impulsive!

so, my mom jokes that my job is like a cult, because they keep sending me to 'training'. it's all really funny... talking about the 'company way', etc etc. all really hysterical. so, there's this notorious 2 week training class, where they put you up in a hotel, give you a perdiem, etc. i haven't gone yet, for all sorts of reasons, but today they told me that i start my training on monday.
i was pissed at first, becasue i didn't appreciate having to drop eveything in my life to go to a class 2 hours away from home where i'm already going to know everything anyway! but then i was thinking, not only do i get my own room in a hotel (with free hbo, yay) and something like $25 a day to buy food, but i'd have the whole weekend off, from friday at 5 until monday morning around 10!

i was telling my boss how fun it would be to hop a plane and get the hell out of here for a day or two.

so, i bought two plane tickets and a hotel room and me and my mom are flying to orange county for a day to go to disneyland. ;-)

fun! i can't wait!

real world, my ass.

nowhere in the 'real world' have i heard of people being provided with a gorgeous, furnished place to live (basically for free) cush jobs handded to them on a silver planner, and all kinds of free prizes and trips to cool places. of course on the Real World (note the caps) people get exactly this, and then bitch that they don't like their job PLANNING PARTIES. whatever.

regardless of all this, i'm all over this season of real world. my and my housemate have nicknamed it skank time, becasue that's basically what it is. it's really fun to watch and make fun of everyone. what i don't understand is why everone is drooling all over the man-whore (steven). he's not even that cute, and he's obviously dumber than a bag of hair. trichelle cracks me up, too - everone talks about how she's so innovent... HA! innocent my ass... she's a skank in sheeps-clothing. frank is... well, boring. so is alton, so far. irulan and arissa are getting more interesting as time goes by. and brynn! she is a whiny, irresponsibe, arrogant, selfish spoiled brat.

the great thing about watching the whole season of real world is that these people really do tend to change throughout the whole thing... and usually they change for the better. i'm curious to see what i think of all these people at the end of the season.

mmm, gotta love trash tv!

damn!

so, it's not like i don't have things to say, but my days are so long and they fly by so fast and then it's been a week and i realize i haven't posted. this sucks because i was never very good at writing my thoughts in a real, 3-dimentional journal... i'd write every few days for a month or so and then i'd stop writing altogether. so, i have a great record of about 3 months of freshman year, and then another 4 of junior year and that's it. this blog has been great because it's a pretty constant record of what's been going on with me, and i like that. someday i can go back and be like, wow, this was what it was like to be in my early 20's. you know?

so, yesterday i joined a gym!! it's about time... i finally had the $$ to shell out, so i figured this is a good thing to spend it on, rather than random crap. the membership includes free personal training, and i had my first half-hour this morning. the trainer showed me how to take my heart rate, and we worked on cardiovascular stuff, treadmill, bike, etc., setting up how fast i should be going, and for how long. wednesday morning i have my next session, and we're going to work on the weights... this is all good, because i'm generally clueless about these sorts of things. working out has always been a bit of a struggle for me (i blame it on the exercise induced asthma), but with such long hours at work, i really didn't want to get in a cycle of work 11 hours, eat, then sleep. it was like, the last straw. so now, basically i'm going to spend the winter working my ass off. ;-) hahaha.

friday five

it's been a while, so here's the friday five!

1. Would you say that you're good at keeping in touch with people? well, i used to be. i used to be great at writing letters, and e-mails, but i've been slacking lately. however, on a completely different level, i still am good friends with most of the people from my 'group' in high school. so i guess i'm both good and bad at staying in touch with people.

2. Which communication method do you usually prefer/use: e-mail, telephone, snail mail, blog comments, or meeting in person? Why? well, lately i favor the phone and meeting in person, mostly becasue i've gotten to lazy to type.

3. Do you have an instant messenger program? How many? Why/why not? How often do you use it? I have IM, and i use it every few days... i have about 50 buddies on my list, but only 3 or 4 i actually im on a regular basis. i used to use icq, but gave up on it... mostly because everyone else did. ;-)

4. Do most of your close friends live nearby or far away? a lot of them live far away now, but people have been moving so often it's hard to keep track anymore.

5. Are you an "out of sight, out of mind" person, or do you believe that "distance makes the heart grow fonder"? no, out of sight, never out of mind. ;-)

ugh.

it's been a busy and expensive week. i've been working my ass off at 'the job', which is good because i'm making a lot of money (and getting paid weekly, yay) but this is bad because i've even been working on my days off. today was a day off, which was really a morning off, since i went to work at 12, and it doesn't even really count because i slept through most of it. though, considering the general lack of sleep i've been getting, and the fact that i don't get to sleep in for another week, it was probably a good way to spend my time.

let's see... went to greg and lexi's wedding on friday... got to see lot of people i haven't seen in a while. the wedding was lovely, and the reception was a blast. saturday jason and danny were visiting from la, so a bunch of us went to lucnh at chevys and then went to the mall. i hadn't been to valley fair for a while, so it was fun. i got the name of a salon here in sc that does aveda haircoloring, so i'm saving up to become a redhead (finally) and i went in to bare escentuals to get a makover, which was not a great idea (financially, at least). i asked the girl to show me the mineral stuff i've been seeing on qvc lately, partially because i was curious to see if it really was amazing as everyone says, partially because my mom wanted some and she wanted to know if it worked. well, she did half my face with the makeup and showed me the difference and i was sold. i spent 80 bucks on foundation, the mineral veil, and two brushes without even flinching (ok, maybe i flinched a little). add that to the new printer i bought last week, and i'm poor again. good thing i get paid tomorrow!

plus, the other day i was caller 5 on KMBY and i won ticket to ren faire! i've never won anything off the radio before, so it was super exciting! that station has gotten way better in the past month or so... it used to be just crappy 'new' bands that all sound the same, but now there's more 'classics' like nirvana and offspring and beck and stp and weezer. and good new bands like system of a down. they could play more pearl jam, though. you hear that?? more pearl jam!!! and start playing loveline again! live 105 over in the bay area has gotten better too... it's like a rock renaissance.

good music things: i like the french kicks. and the new weezer song. and the new songs by christina and justin (gotta love that pop music!). and did i mention that i love the new coldplay cd? that and guster. good stuff.

another year

I wish you could adore
The way you did before
Now you're living through another year
Oh, the light you were
Will soon become a blur
As you're living through another year

Oh, what a waste of time it is
To indulge inside of bliss
Getting ready for another year like this

Another year to lie
Another year goes by

You're not sick, so you can�t heal
But I wonder do you feel
The need to cry: 'I'm out of here'
Oh, your goal is safe
But is it all you crave
As you're living through another year

Oh, what a waste of time it is
To indulge inside of bliss
Getting ready for another year like this

Another year to lie
Another year goes by

Is it me, oh how I see
The face of mediocrity
I try to smile you see
The lightness darkens me
Filter all of your emotions
Fake you�re never low
Or face the one you fear
You�re living through another year

Another year to lie
Another year goes by
Another year to lie
Another year goes by

-Another Year, K's Choice

9/11, again.

last year, i was so freaked out, i slept with the tv and lights on for nearly a week.

i've got a million thoughts running through my head, but i really don't think i could put them down in any organized way. tomorrow i'm spending the day at a training class for my new job, and then i'm going to come home, eat leftover pizza, and work on a freelance editing job i've been neglecting. no watching speeches, or memorial services, or anything like that. i still get a little freaked out when i start seeing images from last year repeated over and over, and 45 minutes of dateline tonight is enough for me.

whatever, i'm babbling and i'm too tired to think straight. i'm going to go to sleep.

sleep is precious, man.

so, having a job is great and all that, but working 7am to 6pm sucks frozen hose water.

actually, it's not nearly as bad as i thought it was going to be, but 11 hours at work (with a luch hour, of course) is still a really long time. i keep telling myself over and over, 'money is good. money is good. money is good.' see. the way it works out, i work 44 hours a week, and 12 of them count as overtime. so, basically, i work 4 extra hours a week and make an extra 100 bucks. an extra $100 a week!!! yeeah. like i told d, i'll die of exhaustion, but at least i'll die rich.

i think i'm paraniod about sleeping through my alarm, though, because i haven't slept through a night since i started my new job.

damn!

enough with the damn medlies - i wanna know the winner!

guster/john

nothing better than sitting with my cat, listening to a new cd (guster!), eating chocolate covered cashews.

speaking of guster, i totally forgot to comment on the guster/john mayer show a few weeks ago! we got there about 2 or three songs into guster's set and the place was horribly crowded... but we managed to find a decent spot. i might be spoiled, but what is it with people who come to shows to fucking talk??? i swear to god, it's the number one most annoying thing about concerts... people talking. why pay close to 100 bucks for tickets, parking and bad beer to not even pay attention to the damn show?!? ok, end rant. other than the chatty audience, the show was great! guster was pretty damn good... the drummer plays with his hands. john was amazing of course, although i was slightly bummed at the lack of non-album tracks. the tenacious d 'tease' was great, as was the van halen and inxs covers. overall, the show rates an a-. if guster is in town again, i'll definetly be chekcing them out, and of course, i'll be seeing john mayer every chance i get. ;-)

ok, i really should sleep some... i work long days and i'm still not used to it yet.

p.s. kelly will win. kelly will win. kelly will win.