so this is the new year....

so this is the new year,
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one

i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

there'd be no distance that could hold us back.

so this is the new year....

-death cab for cutie

whooooooosh

where does the time go??

all of a sudden christmas has come and gone, and now it's creeping up on new years and yet again we (me & the high school buddies) have no concrete plans for new years eve. some things never change. ;-)

i've been having fun playing with the best present ever, and i'm still cleaning up after the party i threw saturday - my annual holiday party. the last one was a bit of a dud (everyone was sick), and last year we couldn't nail down a date that everyone could do, so no party. this year, however, was fab, we ate tons of food, traded gifts, played games, sang songs, and ground some chocolate into my couch. ;-) but all ended well and we had a great time. who knows, we might even break a record for my little house and have two parties here in one week. we'll see what happens on the 31st!

good news on teh job front, too - my boss told me today that i'm one of the seasonals they want to keep on after the first of the year. this is great news becasue i am quickly running out of money! i'll only be part time, but i'm gonna file for unemplyment and that will hopefully help pay for some of the bills. and you know, it's really nice to have a job that i don't DREAD going to every morning, so hanging on to it for a while longer will be cool. plus, i have a little crush on one of the other seasonals, and i'm hoping he's staying on after new year's too. i still don't know his last name or how old he is, so i could use a little more time to work on it :-)

i carry your heart

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

- e.e. cummings

dear lexus,

your advertizing team should be shot.

or at least fired.

your 'decemebr to remeber' commercials are the most asenine thing i've ever seen, not to mention the single most annoying holiday commercial ever. you know, the one where, like, the dog comes up and there's a key around it's neck, and then there's a lexus in the snowy driveway with a gigantic red bow on it. i mean, COME ON, PEOPLE! a car as a gift would be a nice thing, but not very many people would go out and buy a car without discussing it with their sig. other or something. i dont' know if it's that assumption that pisses me off more or the giant fucking red bow.

< /rant >

newness all around!

i started my new job yesterday, and it was 8 hours filled with smiling too much (face still hurts, ow), repeating the same phrases over and over (how are you today? did you find everything you were looking for? credit or debit?), and really, really sore feet.

and i loved every minute of it!!

i've never worked for such a big place before - the store is really really big and there are something like 25 or 30 people that work there. i've already met a few super nice people, a guy who doesn't cashier but offered to answer any questions i had, a girl who has been there longer than me and is annoyed that i got to learn the register on my first day when no one has trained her yet, and all the managers are so cool and don't get annoyed when i interrupt them with really stupid questions.

the thing i hated the most about my old job was the sales, and thankfully there's none of that pressure now. just ringing things up and taking people's money. ;-)

obviously i have a new design. i was so excited when i found that mermaid over at stock stash (link on the left... i'm lazy) that i had to make somethign with it immediately. ;-) my theory is that i used to post a lot when i had designs i loved (like strawberry shortcake). lately i've been making really lo-fi layouts, and they never kept my interest very long. i guess i just need color and pictures. ;-)

one final thought: while christmas shopping, please stay calm. the person ringing you up is not your personal punching bag, they are not going slow on purpose, maybe it is their first day! be nice to them - it will give you good karma.

but i am le tired.

no matter how many time i watch it, the end of the world always cracks me up.

notice the prevalent use of abreevs! plus, i like it when hawaii says 'w00t'. teehee!

funny funny

heard on live 105 today: the dj encouraging listeners to come to the not so silent night concert, not for the music, but to see his new mistletoe belt.

and why is it that when i'm just messing around, friendster works just fine, but when i actually have people to look up, it's not working? grrrr.

unemployment rules

it's been 1 week since my last day at the job from hell, and i can honestly say that unemployment is cooool. i've been enjoying myself for the past week, visiting with friends, shopping, eating way too much turkey, and mostly SLEEPING. i only felt caught up on my sleep yesterday. that's what hard core exhaustion can do, kids.

got my hair cut on wednesday. no photo, but i can say that it is short. shorter than last time, i think... when it's curly it's just about sholder length, a little longer when i blow dry it. lynn (my awesome stylist) always does a great job. she flat-irons my hair before i leave, which look sooooo good but i can never manage to do it myself... i can never reach the back.

in other exciting news, i got a call back on a job application i put in today! it's the only place i applied that i think i'd actually *like* to work. it's only a holiday job, but that is actually cool... if it sucks, i have a defininte end date. i'm going in on sunday to talk to the hiring manager, so think good thoughs for me!

well, tonight the old high school gang is supposedly going bowling. i haven't heard anything for a few hours, so we'll see. in the meantime, back to cleaning... my house needs some serious attention.

slave to the modem light

my internet was down almost all day yesterday, which SUCKED. you never realize how much you rely on (read: obsessed with) something until it's gone.

however, it's back on today, and my speed upgrade kicked in. it's bad ass, i tell you, bad ass.

four more days of work to go. I haven't seen the schedule yet, so i'm not sure of one of those days is a day off. it's a moot point by now, and i could use the extra $$, so if i am working all 4 days, it's no big deal.
although, that would mean that in the time between returning from vacation and my last day - 15 total days - i got 2 days off. yet another reason i'm leaving this SHITTY company.

although i've managed to leave everything on fairly good terms - as a little going away thingy for me, we're all going out before i leave. should be fun - i always had the most fun outside of work, when we'd go out for drinks, or to dinner. everyone's all excited - they think that just becasue i'm leaving, they can get me drunk, and on beer no less. I try to explain to my boss that i think beer is just about the foulest thing ever, but he doesn't buy it. i told him that he'll be buying me a bunch of soda. ;-)

speakeasy rules!

i love my ISP! i just upgraded my DSL speed and my monthly bill went DOWN by almost 20 bucks!

speakeasy rules. you should totally go check them out if you need DSL.

9 days left!

i quit my job last friday. this means that i only have 9 more days left before i get to run screaming from the hellhole that i've been working in for over a year. every second i spend at work feels like an eternity now. i can't WAIT until my exit interveiw, though - i'm going to give HR an earful... no breaks, working 6,7,8,9 days in a row without a day off, i could go on and on. but for now i jsut keep repeating "9 days left. 9 days left." 9 DAYS LEFT!

i got back from vacation 1 week ago today, and i've been avoiding the grocery store. i have no milk, no bagels, no veggies, no cream cheese, no regular cheese, and did i say no bagel? ugh. i have about a thousand other errands to run today, too, and i really don't want to leave my house.

also one week ago today - the simon and garfunkel concert. it was fucking AWESOME - not nessecarily the words you would hear connected to a reunion tour of a sixties folk duo, but fucking AWESOME is about all i can say. it was sone of those shows where every note blows you away, where you spend every second on the edge of your seate, trying to breathe the music in. totally worth the (rather expensive) ticket price.

on a totally random note - i love the internet. i just watched tonight's episode of the OC (my new favorite show) about 10 hours before it airs! ahhh, the age of technology is grand. ;-)

love that L.A. feeling

after weeks of anticipation, i'm FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY on vacation! the waether here in Hollywood is beautiful, i'm helping some friends move, and mentally preparing myself for the hollywood carnival tonight. i've decided to go as little red riding hood yet again - i'ts a different variation on the costume i usually wear, though. i'm still not sure. i have a few hours left to decide.

not smoke or fires visible form here, although i was tricked on the way down yesterday... over santa barbara there were a lot of grey clouds that looked a lot like smoke. i'm onnly worried about orange county - all the smoke from the san bernadino fires is blowing right over anaheim, and i hear disneyland is right in the path. hwatever, i'm hard core... i'm gonna go anyway. ;-)

ok, time to go move some boxes. more updates (and photos, too!) a little later.

a beach towel?!?

I heard on the radio today that a man sued his surgeon for leaving a 16x28 beach towel in his body for 3 months.

first - what the HELL was a beach towel doing in the operating room???

second - wouldn't you notice something like that? like, 'hey, this is a strange bulge i didn't have before! where did this come from?'

this whole thing grosses me out. the guy won his case, for 450,000. i don't know about you, but if that were me i'd want at least a few mil and the guy's medical liscence to run through my shredder. but then again, i do live in the lawsuit capital of the country. ;-)

Kill Bill....

i went to see kill bill last weekend. it was an ok movie.. i was impressed with the artisitc detail, if not by the storyline, which was a little too violent for me. the thing that made it really hard to concentrate was the fact that there were SMALL CHILDREN in the audience. there were 4 boys, two that looked about 10, and two that looked about seven. SEVEN! and they were with their PARENTS! what kind of assholes take their kids to a movie like that? ASSHOLES.

moving to oregon now.

I LIVE IN A STATE FULL OF IDIOTS.

that is all.

how is the housing market in oregon? anyone?